Not good…

 I really am going to do this all by myself.

It’s becoming painfully more obvious every.damn.day.

I am 31w4d pregnant today.

Today Danny tells me of his schedule for the next few weeks… He’s working in PA right now; he’s 8+ hours away. He’s been gone since July 2nd and he’ll be home the 21st. He’ll go back to PA on the 26th. He’ll come home again the 17th of August and then leave for somewhere in NY (read: 11 hours from home) on the 22nd of August and wont be home again until…

September 8th, at the earliest. That’s only 3 days from my due date.

I will only get to see him 2 more times before baby gets here. And if she decides to come early… I get to drive myself the 30 miles to the hospital when I go into labor.

 The only saving grace would be if they decided to send him to Baltimore instead of NY, then he’ll only be 6 hours from home. Still not much consolation.

Oh my god this sucks out loud. I’ve had to go through 90% of this pregnancy by myself so far and it looks like her birth will be more of the same. My mother was supposed to come be with me in September, but decided to take on a project at work and *maybe* come up for a long weekend after the baby is born.

And there is no hope of him getting a decent job close to home any time soon… I know it’s not his fault, but I may as well just be a single mother.