help me out with this one folks

Philip & I had a good talk Saturday morning. We had a few good conversations in the afternoon, kidding around & stuff. It was the best feeling in the world. It was like my Philip was back.

Sunday, he hardly talked to me at all. I could tell he was depressed. I tried cheering him up, but nothing seemed to help. So last night I just got pissy with him & tole him to cal me when he was ready to talk, then I hung up.

I felt really bad about hanging up on him. I’m his girlfriend. I’m supposed to be supportive and everything. So I called him this morning & apologized. I felt better.

He called & left me a message at 6:30 pm. I called him back after I got out of work, it was after 7. We chatted for a minute. Then he says that he sent me an e-mail today but that I am not to read it & delete it immediately. I kidded around with him about it. I sent him all those drunk e-mails Friday nite & never told him not to read them. He sad it was just ramblings from an imbecile. I thought I should read it. But I told him I wouldn’t.

I am a nosy bitch.

Basically, he is unhappy. He doesn’t know why. He is only happy when someone else is around, otherwise he’s completely depressed. He says it’s not fair to put the pressure on me to keep him happy. He just wants to be friends right now, while he works himself out. If I want to wait for him that’d be great. If I don’t, he’d have to learn to live with it. But I am a great person with alot of great qualities.

FUCK

He "broke up with me" in a mother fucking e-mail. But he "didn’t" really. He justifies it by telling me not to read it.

I am beyond pissed.

I’ve been broken up with face-to-face, over the phone, with a hand-written letter. But a mother fucking e-mail?!? Am I that fucking worthless?!?

So now what do I do? Do I act like I never read it? Or do I call him out on it, cause it was a really shitty thing to do?

I’d really appreciate some input on this one folks. Because I am torn.

--a perfect tragedy--

August 28, 2006

i would say talk to him about it… see how he really feels. if he said not to worry about it, than maybe hes realized how dumb it was, but the fact that the thought still entered his mind i think should be talked about. i hope you can work everything out .. its always sad when someones sad 🙁 especially when they cant figure out why. <3 hugs and love

SilentEcho

August 29, 2006

Sweetie, don’t worry. If he had just left the email and not called to say delete it then worry but seriously focus on the other stuff in that email, maybe help him feel better somehow. Of course DON’T tell him you read it, but just be supportive that’s what he needs right now for whatever reason. You seem strong enough and a good enough person to understand that. *hugs*

Maybe reply email him and say you understand and break it off? And if he calls you and freaks out about it, then stay with him? Its a tough call.

RYN: IKEA sells tons of bedding for it, I would totally stock up if I bought the bed. Im a pack rat like that anyway. 🙂 Argh I want it!

jennylicious

September 25, 2006

Break-ups via email are shitty. It’s not your fault, though…it sounds to me like it’s HIS problem. Thanks for the note on my latest entry. How’d you find me?

Byrn

It’s hard to act like you never read the email, he’ll probably find out eventually. It’s best to talk about it and get things straight. thanks for the note on my diary 🙂