SoHoHooooo

I asked him.
I jumped.
I did it.
And he said Yesss!
We are officially a couple!
Fabulous!!!!! 

Ive already gone "cold" though.
I didnt pay much attention to him in work today.
I pulled back when he went to kiss me… noted the SHOCKED expression radiating from his face, then leant in and smooched him in front of co-workers, awkward times people. awkward times.
Its out.
Everybody knows.
I dont mind. everyone seems pretty chilled about it.
Its not like it was unexpected though eh? 

I did kinda wanna see him tonight,. but thought it best if i stay here to watch the little bro and sister, and mae sure mother and father get into bed safely.
we spoke on em es ennnnn.
and he said something about going to Bristol.
For some reason i dont want to go.
I dont want to see him tomorrow.

What the hell is going on?!?!
Ive been rabbiting on about him for weeks. and FINALLY now were Officially together.
Im all… "meh"
erghy ergh.

Big Poo Head.
In Other News….

My two best friends in the world. one of which is Gay but an absolute Beaut! I love them both!
came over yesterday.
we chilled in my room, sang on singstar! and jumped around on my trampoline in pitch black with my little brother and sister!
It was so fun!
and as they were stood at the front door ready to leave, i ran upstairs to get one of them their jacket, as i was reaching the top i heard him say "Awh ive had so much fun tonight!!"
That made me feel great!
I can be a good host. and people can have a great time around me.
even if i did spend half an hour at my front door shouting at some chav for calling my mum a bitch to her face, and telling her to go get pissed.
i went mental.
he soon backed off and said sorry.
No idea why he came on our property anyway? =S

I had fun! totally!
Loved it!
Wish i could do it more often to be honest! 
reminded me that we can be kids and have fun!

A quote from one of Milan Kundera’s books, "Immortality"
"There is a certain part of us all that lives outside of time. Perhaps we become aware of our age only at exceptional moments and most of the time we are ageless…"
That springs to mind as i speak about the fun we had.
and also that you do not need to drink to have a giggle!

Maybe i will try and lighten up about this Alan Issue. and see if i can enjoy this relationship.
I hope so.
as i have said before. i dont want to hurt him. and i do not want to get hurt myself.

Lets see hmmmm…..

Much Love Lovely People!
keep on smiling, It suits you 😉