Lets Talk about Me!

I like Smarites, and Coca-cola.
I used to be additced to Minstrels, but that was because it had a competition on it to win a book.
which i never won,
at one point i had over 11 packets in my room all saved up to enter the codes onto the website.
NOT ONE WIN!
gutted.
I used to drink Dr Pepper, but then i realised Coca-cola were giving away free Itunes songs with every bottle. You also collect points which you can purchase stuff with on the website and use to enter competitions.
I Love Coca-cola even more now.
My teeth shall be rotting out of my head shortly.
im trying to ween off of the original coke and drink Diet coke instead. as i know the fizzyness and caffeine isnt good for me.
But i am an addict. there.i took the first step!

Im also addicted to cigerrettes. I smoke a deadly amount daily. i spend copious amounts of money on these little death sticks.
But somehow it doesnt matter. I enjoy it.
I will smoke 2 on any journey anywhere.
2 on the return journey, and if im at work i will smoke at least 2 on any break. regardless of wheather i have time or not. i will have two.
when im at home i smoke most.
I have asthma. and know that this amount is not good for me, smoking is not good for me full stop.
I drink alot of tea.
and if i dont have cereal for breakfast, or a bacon and egg sandwhich, i will eat chocolate for the rest of today.
I had pizza this morning.
and am now onto smarites, a Dairy Milk bar and a bottle of coke.
My fast metabolism will wear off and ill become stupidly obese at some point!!

Im addicted to buying shite.
shite.
I spent £30 when i finished work one day, in the store.
on shite as far as i remember, mostly food. oh and a dvd.
I spent over £60 online buying clothes. i didnt even bargain hunt, but i was happy with what i got!

I like to drink Guinness, whenever i do go out. it will be Guinness.
If im indoors with someone drinking. it will be Wine. or vodka.
I like to look at the clouds and create images out of the shapes.
I want to move to Ireland.
All of my family are Irish, we all have Irish names. and i go there at least twice a year, each time becoming more and more besotted with the place.
In a romantic situation. I like to be lying down, playing with hands, stroking the hands, and peering at the lines strewn across the palms.
I read tarot cards, I make cosmic orders, but all the same I beleive I am an autonomous being and am in control of my own destiny.
i call upon the cards to look into my inner thoughts and feelings, most of the time they tell me what i already know.
the cosmic orders are just strong wishes to the universe, which if i want something strong enough i can get it.

Since i was young i have wanted to care for people.
I want to make them smile, I want to make their day.
In a train station in Dublin there was a man on the floor, he was homeless, Id just spent like €4 on a sandwhich which was repulsive, turned to the guy and asked him if he wanted it.
I knew he would appreciate food, i didnt want to give him money to feed any other addiction he may have had, plus "want not waste not"
I was also aware he may have felt a little ashamed that a young girl realised his downfall and felt sorry for him. so i made him aware that i didnt like it and i had spent a ridiculous amount of money on it!
he repeatedly said Thankyou.

Another time at this station, My whole family were running for the train, I was calm and didnt want to rush around, i knew we had plenty of time. I was having a fag outside when a woman asked for a lighter.
she explained she had to be at a hospital soon for chemotherapy, and she shouldnt really be smoking but she couldnt help it.
I could smell Brandy or Whiskey on her breath.
She looked faint so i kept an eye on her, after a few minutes she was swaying and i held her up.
I said i would take her to the taxi rank, and get her to the hospital.
My family/mother was annoyed at what i was doing, as they thought i was going to make them late. all the same I took her to the rank.
the whole time she was saying thankyou, and how i looked like her daughter… who had died :/
I got her into the taxi and ordered the man to get her there safely and to take her to the hospital doors.

Im glad she was ok, i hope she is ok, this was years ago and she might not remember me, but i remember her and she is in my thoughts.
Being a nurse is my vocation,
That is what i want to do, that is where i want to be.
I also want to have money.
I want to be independant. constantly, having money and being financially secure is what makes me feel more independant.

I also wonder why so many people in my life are inflicted by the alcohol disease,
the new people i meet, The people i have known for years.
I enjoy reading poems,
I enjoy reading difficult books, like Milan Kundera, Wiki him, he’s an intelligent writer.
I enjoy Dancing, and music.
Music is my passion. I listen to all sorts, i think the top two songs i enjoy listening to right now are:-
Rachael Yamagata – Duet… Youtube it if you are interested.
and
Scout Niblett – Kiss…definitely Youtube that one, the video is so… creative!
Songs speak to me and mean different things,
nearly all of last year i was obsessed with Mayday Parade, and A Day To Remember,
I think these are more immature than what i listen to now, But they all still mean alot to me and speak to me.

I like to do my hair and makeup, i like to shop, i like to act!
More than anything i love to act, I love to be the centre of attention at the best of times.
I am a leo and that is maybe why i have these attributes.

When i talk to people, I wave my arms around, and describe things with my arms. I speak in different tones and personify situations.
Ive hit people whilst talking to someone because of waving my arms around.
I once hit one of my good friends in school with a rounders bat across the face because of my movements.
I must admit though, this was quiet humerous, she wasnt seriously hurt thankfully!

I try to think highly of myself, modestly. Positively.
I like to repair things, i like to tidy up. alot.
and i like to imagine things.

I do not like my hands, they are rough from all the tidying and what not, they have tiny scars all over the tops of them from the life saving injections i had to have as a Baby, I was born two months premature, i was meant to be born on October 31st, but was born on August the 20th.
I have a small scar just above the beginning of my nose on my forehead from one of the main injections, this doesnt bother me, it never has for some reason. scars never have.
I have three small, pretty non exitstant moles across my stomach, it looks like "Ryans Belt" in a diagnol line.
Below that i have a scar from when i had my appenix re

moved.

I Dont like peanuts, I dont like Marmite, but i do like marmite Crisps.
I dont like Black Pudding, and i HATE cheese, but can bear it on pizza’s if i cant taste it.
I HATE peas, well i thought i did until i BARELY cooked them, just so the veg was crunchy, and they were really sweet.
I try to avoid liars and pessemistic people.
I enjoy being around happy people, who like to laugh and arent afraid to be themselves.
I like to be Loved, and i like to show love. 
I dont like clingyness, and i dont crave attention, i Just enjoy it when i have it.

I need a new purse. (preferably money included)
I want to tan.
and im sure i have bunions on my feet.
I want them gone.
If only.
I also need to buy some more Black hair dye but am considering Blue Black.
Give it some constant shine!
I also really enjoy listening to
City & Colour – The Death of me. Youtube that!

I also want to put up some videos on youtube of me and my brother and sister. when i do ill let you guys know so you can have a gander at the child like me!
haha
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