P.S. I Love You *EDIT*

I just realized that I haven’t update on what I’m currently reading in quite some time.  Know why?  Because I LEFT Keri’s book in Nebraska.  LOL  Damn it!  So I’m still in the process of reading this book:

And now I have to go buy a copy of it to replace Keri’s book that was left behind.  *sigh*  No worries.  I got an email from Barnes and Noble today with a 15% off coupon.  YAY!

I’ve also been working on my own personal Bible study that I found online.  Ever since Jacob and I started discussing religion more deeply, I’ve had a strong desire to strengthen my relationship with God.  I’m not going to really get into it here simply because as I have told Jacob so many times, I like to keep my relationship with the Lord private and personal.  I don’t really feel that it’s anybody else’s business.  But I do feel more at peace now that I am taking this personal journey.

I  also did some online research and found a church that is of the same denomination as the church that my family attends back home.  I’m looking forward to attending service this Sunday to see if it is what I am searching for.  I know for a fact that attending church with Jacob at the Catholic church is just not going to cut it for me.  I literally started crying at the beginning of service last week because the priest straight up looked me in the eye and told me that I am not allowed to take communion in their church because I’m not Catholic. 

He went so far as to say that only Catholics truly believe that the bread is really the body of Christ and that the wine is really the blood of Christ.  Umm… I beg to differ!  I have never felt so let down and discouraged by somebody as I was when he said that to me.  Jacob asked me why I was so upset, but for whatever reason I just can’t get him to understand my point of view on the subject.  He kept thinking that I was angry, but I managed to get him to understand that I was just passionate about how I felt.

I grew up in a church that has open arms and open communion for anybody who wishes to participate.  As long as you have faith and beileve in God… as long as you are taking in communion with the belief that you are being forgiven for your sins… as long as you believe that Jesus died on the cross in order for us to be forgiven for our sins… then you are more than welcome to participate in communion and service.  It doesn’t matter what church you come from as long as you are Christian.  Right?  The churches that I grew up in would never turn you away simply because you were Catholic.

Can you tell that I’m offended?  No worries.  I’ll be doing what I feel is right in my heart.  Enough said.

Anywho… on to why I wanted to write and actual entry today.  Last night Jacob and I watched the movie P.S. I Love You.  And I have to say that it is probably now one of my favorite movies ever.  I will definitely be buying the DVD, and I want to get the book too and see if it’s actually better than the movie.  Usually the books are better by comparison.  If you haven’t seen it, it is well worth the rental price if not the purchase price.  And I must add… Holly and Jerry reminded both Jacob and I a lot of ourselves and our relationship.  I’m thinking about buying a journal and writing letters to Jacob.  Maybe I’ll give it to him for our 5th anniversary next year.

Can you believe that we have been together for 4 years?!  It will be 4 years ago on May 31st!  And our 2nd wedding anniversary is only a couple of months away.  Time sure flies when you’re having fun… or stressed out all the time.  LOL

I suppose I better get back to work.  I have things to fax and all that jazz.

Laters,
JamieLynn =)

*EDIT*
I just remembered for about the 10th time today that today is my ex’s birthday.  Is it weird that I remember that?  I actually remember all of the birthdays of the guys that I was in serious relationships with.  Today is the one that I wish I didn’t remember though.  At least this particular ex is locked away.  He’s been locked up since 2003 and supposedly is in there for 25 years.  I’m sure there is the option for parole.  I just don’t know when/if it will happen.  I hope it doesn’t.  I hope he doesn’t end up being as psycho as he was when he first got locked up and end up trying to find me.  I have visions of him sitting in prison staring at a picture of me… counting the days until he gets out so that he can find me.  He once told me that he could get away with killing me.  How crazy is that???  Ahhh… memories… LMAO  Thank God I’m not with that loser anymore.