No Internet At Home

Hopefully not for long though.  I don’t know if I’m going to get the cable reconnected in MY name, or what we are going to do, but I just HAVE to have internet at home!!!  Maybe I’ll get my internet through SBC and just get DSL.  I don’t know.  Guess I’ll figure it out later.

I HATE HATE HATE that we fell so far behind on our bills when Jacob lost his job.  And now it is going to take forever to get caught back up!!!  And he still doesn’t think that he needs to get a full time job, which really urks me like no other!!!  We are behind on bills because of him, but yet he doesn’t see it that way.  I don’t want to be a bitch and make it out to be all his fault, but DAMN.  I’ve been pulling this load for so long now.  He keeps saying that we’ll get caught up, but I don’t see how.

In part, I guess it’s my fault.  IF I wouldn’t have gotten my plane tickets to go home and visit this summer, then we wouldn’t be so far behind.  At the end of THIS month I have to pay the $700 deposit that we STILL haven’t paid for our apartment.  Luckily our landlord is an absolute angel and has let us slide for so darned long.  Once we pay that bill, then we will have not much money to last us another 2 weeks until I get paid again, and then THAT check will go to next months rent.  THEN at the end of NEXT month, we will be going to Nebraska, so I won’t want to spend any money out of that check as I will want to have money when we go home to visit.

Luckily, Nebraska isn’t an expensive place to visit, and hopefully we won’t blow my whole check while we are there.  Jacob does get paid SOME money weekly from his part time job, and he is getting PARTIAL unemployment ever other week as well.  It’s just that we are waiting for everything to start falling into place the way that it’s supposed to, and it seems like it is taking just way too damn long!!!

Once we are back from Nebraska, then everything will REALLY begin to fall back into place.  I’ll be able to pay off ALL of our bills and get everything caught up!!! Unfortunately it’s going to end up being the around July/August before it happens.  If I could get a refund for my plane tickets, I would almost be tempted to cash them in and go home some other time.  BUT they are non-refundable, SO we HAVE to go for this visit.  Not to mention if I would have cancelled our trip it would have ended up pissing off a whole lot of people.  LOL  So it’s probalby for the best that we are going as planned.

All I know is we are going to HAVE to get caught up on everything and start saving for this wedding ASAP!!!  I found out today that it is going to cost $350 for the reception hall.  I didn’t think that was too bad.  So I’ll hopefully be able to get that reserved this week.  I don’t know how much the deposit is going to be yet though.  I’ll hopefully find out within the next couple of the days, and then from there I’ll be able to get the deposit paid.  So I now know what my FIRST official expense is going to be for my wedding budget.

If for some reason I’m not able to get this reception hall, my mom suggested maybe having the reception out at the golf course.  So that’s another option.  Guess we’ll wait and see what happens with this location first though.

Well I better get back to work.  I worked pretty hard this morning, but have been slacking off a bit this afternoon.  LOL  And since I don’t have internet at home now, I will definitely need to make sure that my work is up to date on a daily basis until I can work from home again.  I REALLY NEED MY INTERNET BACK!!!!