Let Down #1 AND #2

So I didn’t get the recruiter job that I so desparately wanted.  I had my follow up interview with Bob yesterday… thought that it went well.  But evidentally not well enough.  I found out this morning that the job was offered to Aderval.  I’m happy for him though.  We are all in the same boat right now, so I can’t be mad when one of the others gets a job that we all want/need.

I’m pretty emotional now.  I’m starting to go into panic mode.  I’m trying so hard to keep my composure though.  I don’t want this to get to me so much that I can’t concentrate on what’s important.  This is all happening for a reason, and I just have to continue to have faith that everything will be alright.

Bob told me yesterday that they are doing everything they can to find new positions for all of us within STS still.  He actually made it sound pretty promising.  But at the same time, who’s to say that he wasn’t just candy coating the situation to make it seem okay.

I do still have a chance at getting my old position back I guess.  It really pisses me off that they are pretty much leaving us all hanging until the last minute though.  Our last day is on MONDAY!  I want to know NOW if I’m going to have something to come to work for on Tuesday…  and I want to know NOW!

Okay… quick happy note.  I got my pictures back from the photographer.  They turned out GREAT!  I’m so happy with them!!!  Eventually I’ll get them all scanned and uploaded online.  It’ll probably be awhile though.

Jacob is up at his aunt’s house with his brother right now.  Zane came and picked him up yesterday.  They are doing some landscaping for Cindy and she is paying them for their labor.  He probably won’t be home until tomorrow or possibly the next day.  =  Last night was the first night that I’ve stayed in our apartment alone.  It wasn’t so bad at all.  I watched Big Brother and Rockstar: Supernova while I downloaded all sorts of music for the iPod.  Tonight will probably be more of the same.

I suppose I better get back to work.  I have cases that are about to start missing SLA.  Do I care???  LOL  HELL NO!  But oh well.  I’d rather not hear the bullshit if they do miss SLA.

So keep your fingers crossed for me that I get some type of job SOON!

Laters,
JamieLynn =)

*EDIT

So not only did I not get the recruiter spot… I didn’t even get my OLD job back!!!  Eric just called me and told me that no I didn’t get it.  WTF!  I don’t know what I am right now.  I can’t breathe.  I want to cry, but can’t even do that.  What are we going to do now???