It Hit the Fan

Shit that is.

It finally happened folks.  I completely snapped on Shannon’s stupid ass at the end of the day yesterday.  It wasn’t pretty at all, and it ended with me calling her a stupid fucking bitch as she walked out the door.  To which she told Rosie as she was shaking like a leaf that she was going to have a little talk with Keri this morning before I got to work.  Little did she know that I’m not going to sit back and let her get the first word in.  I "womaned up" and sent an email to Keri explaining my side of the story.  Feel free to view the email that I sent below:

Hey Keri,

I just wanted to send you a quick email to let you know that Shannon and I had some words tonight.  I’m more than willing to take partial blame for blowing up at her, but I’d like to tell you my side of the story because I know that she will probably say something to you.

First of all, this is what happened.  After you left for the day, Lani sent over an email asking for us to get a good portion of the filing done or get things purged before we left for the night.  In all honesty, I knew that Shannon wasn’t going to do any filing, so as soon as I got the chance I got up and started trying to at least get the rest of the January exams filed.  At this time, Shannon was in the lab copying pages from her school books even though we are running low on paper, and when she came back in the office the phone rang.  I had my back turned, so I’m not sure if she was already logged out, but she answered the phone and put the line on hold, told me that she was logged out and to get the phone.  I asked her to see if Rosie could get the line to which she mentioned that Rosie was busy making photocopies of exams.

I was entirely too frustrated, and I mentioned something about if she would help file more often it would help out, and help to purge as well.  We went back and forth, with her trying to say that I don’t do my job, and trying to say that I spend all my time online.  To that, I am going to defend myself and say that the only time that I am online is if I’m not busy with work related projects.  From the time that I walk in the office in the morning usually until it is time for lunch, I am making scheduling calls, now confirmation calls, working on problems and then the gefaprob report.  More times than not I end up doing the filing as well because I know that it is part of the job.  I have gotten out of the habit of filing everyday, but in order to make sure that it doesn’t become an issue, I am going to go back to making sure that it is done every day.

I know that we all have our own tasks, and we should be staying as busy as possible.  I know there are things that she knows how to do, that I don’t yet, but that doesn’t mean that I’m not being productive which is what she was basically trying to say.  Needless to say I ended up cussing at her, which I know I am in the wrong for.  I know that I probably shouldn’t have said anything at all, but the fact of the matter is that I did.

I don’t appreciate the fact that she is trying to make me out to be irresponsible when she is usually spending just as much time online if not more than I am.  I’m more than willing to not go online at all, but I don’t want everyone to be punished because of my actions either.  I’m sure that she will be pointing fingers at me regarding this incident, so that’s why I’m coming to you first.  I apologize for my actions, and am willing to accept any consequences.  I do want to show you however that I am dedicated to doing my job the right way and to the best of my ability.

This morning I got to work to find absolutely no response to my email.  I went about my day as usual though and didn’t think twice about it.  Then at about 10:00 this morning we got an email letting us know that we were going to have a staff meeting.  LOL  Here it came.  So we all sit around the round table and Keri basically told us that we needed to get everything aired out.  I owned up to what I did.  I told her that I reacted in appropriately and that I was more than willing to accept responsibility for my action.  Shannon tried to keep egging it on, but I basically put it out there that there wasn’t any point in continuing to talk about what happened.  I told them that I had said what I had to say, that it was over and done with.  I apologized for my actions, and that I was moving on and over it.  I don’t think that Keri thought I would react the way that I did at the meeting, but it was what it was.  Needless to say, I feel much better now that I got to cuss the stupid bitch out and there really wasn’t any repercussions because of it.  I’m sure that Shannon thoguht that a lot worse would happen to me because of it, but ha ha… in my eyes I win.

Funny thing is that Keri kept mentioning that she could sense that this had been coming for awhile but that she just kept thinking it would blow over.  Now that it’s out of my system, I feel much better, and from here on out I’m just going to show Keri what a loser Shannon really is.