Happy Effing Halloween

FUCK!  I’m so fucking frustrated right now.  At the point of tears.  Spent the weekend with Thurman wanting to take things to a more physical level.  We both did.  But I didn’t act on the ques from him and he didn’t act on the ques from me, and now… NOW he is basically calling things off.  Even though we really are on the same page about what we want.

We communicate apart, but when it comes to communicating in person, we freeze up.  And now I’m pissed!  He wants me.  I want him.  Yet here we are going to potentially end things before we even really get started.  I seriously hope this isn’t the end already because we could be good together.