Finally Getting My Foot in the Door

It seems I may have my foot in the door at a couple of places that I’ve sent my resume to.  I had a few moments of squealing when I received both emails a few minutes ago.  I’ve been sending my resume out like crazy, and these are the first two real responses that I’ve gotten so far.  One is an actual interview that has already been set up for me on Saturday at 10:30.  The job is at a chiropractor’s office doing front office work.  Exactly what I’m looking for!!!  I hope this is it.  I know that if it’s meant to be, God will take care of it.  I’ll show up for the interview and put my best foot forward.  I am so excited to actually just have a REAL interview!  It’s crazy how difficult it has been to just get in the door for an interview with somebody.  I like to think that I have the gift for gab.  I’m a good talker and I back up what I say when it comes to my employment and how I perform at a job.

It’s funny how I can be so put together when it comes to work, but when it comes to being at home, I’m a mess!  I abhor housework.  I take advantage of the fact that Jacob does so much around the house.  *sigh*  I suck.  I think I’ll make him a yummy delicious supper tonight to show him that I love him.  I’ve come to realize that I’m a bigger problem in my marriage that I would like to have thought.  For whatever reason I have an issue with showing affection.  I don’t know where it has come from.  But it’s there.  I’m not a cuddler.  I don’t like to kiss a whole lot.  I’m not that into the intimate things that come with marriage.  It has nothing to do with my husband though.  He loves all of that.  He is constantly wanting to cuddle and kiss and of course ya know.  Yet I push him away.  I want my space!  Herein lies the problem.  Jacob is only really wanting me to show him love, yet I resist as much as possible most times.  I push him away like crazy.  No wonder we are the way that we are.  I’m as affectionate as a dead fish.  Poor guy.

Last night something clicked and I just broke down.  I realized what I had been doing.  Not that I was really blind to what I had been doing, but for some reason last night I just realized how unloving I had really been.  Jacob deserves love just as much as anybody if not more.  He is a great guy and if I would acknowledge that every day I’m sure that a lot would change between us.  So there you have it.  I admit that a lot of all that I have to deal with in my relationship with my husband is me and not him.  I need to focus on me and what I need to change to make us happier instead of what Jacob needs to change to make us happier.  Yes, I have a lot to work on.

Well I certainly went off on a different subject than first intended there. =

So the second job prospect is for a Junior Administrative Assistant/Receptionist position.  I went back and found the job posting to remember what it was.  It looks like it is only part time with the opportunity for more hours in the future working at a realty office.  That could be cool with the exception that it’s only part time.  Guess it depends on what they are going to pay as to whether it will be worth my time.  That one isn’t set up for an interview yet.  They want to check my references before they set up an interview.  I’ll go ahead and respond to the email with the references, but I think I’d rather have the other position since it’s full time and all.  Oh and the chiropractor’s office is just down the street from where I live where as the realty office is about 30-40 minutes away (I’m estimating).

So I’m going to go figure out what I’m making Jacob for supper.  I’m thinking cornish game hens, baked potatoes, and corn.