Dear Spontaneity… I Miss You!

For the first time in five years, I didn’t write an entry on my birthday.  It was three days ago.  I turned 28.  Just like last year.  =)  Shut up.  I will be 28 again if I want to, and there’s nothing you can do about it.

It wasn’t (WTF is up with the spell checker thing not recognizing conjugations?) the most memorable birthday.  It could have been.  But I didn’t allow it to be.  We were literally seconds away from jumping in the car and going to either Lake Tahoe or Vegas.  I seriously almost went for it.  I didn’t realize that we are only 8 hours from Vegas, and I know that we are only 4 from Tahoe.  But instead of making it a memorable birthday, I chickened out and did the "smart" thing by staying home and saving money like a good girl.  We would have screwed our budget over if we had gone, so I know I made the right decision.  But when all is said and done, I know that I’m old now.  As little as 5 years ago I would have been in the car at the mere mention of going to either of these places.  Not anymore though.  *sigh*

I feel like I’m going to snap and just start doing these insanely stupid things to rebel against being an adult.  My life is boring.  I miss the old spontaneous me.  Where did she go?  I think she’s still in there.  Just waiting to be let loose.  And even if it would consist of doing something not so spontaneous, but still memorable and spectacular… well that would be nice too.

Jacob and I aren’t getting along much right now.  What else is new right?  It usually happens around this time of year though.  My birthday and then our anniversary which is this coming Sunday.  Crazy to think that we have been together for 5 years.

I stayed up until almost 3 in the morning today.  Why the heck am I wide awake at 7:35?  I’m thinking I may attempt to stay up for the day.  More than likely though I will finish this entry, make some breakfast, put on a movie, and go back to sleep.

I have yet to begin any sort or workout routine to get me in shape for the backpacking trip.  The accountability group that I’m joining starts next Tuesday.  I’m hoping that it keeps me accountable.  LOL

Okay.  I’m ending this now.