Why this dream??! Lol smh

Hi hiiii,

I wanna talk about a dream I had last night… It was pretty cool and interesting but I don’t remember what happened because how it ended was completely out of nowhere..even though most dreams are random lol BUT this was literally one second of random unnecessary scene.

I wake up a lot whilst sleeping and I’m able to pop back into that dream where I left off. I kept putting off waking up with enough time to get ready for work. Closed my eyes with no thought of what I was just dreaming about due to thinking of being tired and telling myself just a little more time. A person I hadn’t dreamt about for some time popped up. ..

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Entering the dream state it was first person view. It began with me checking my facebook messenger and seeing a message from the certain person that I spoke of in my prior entry. The guy I have deep feelings for. The guy that makes me feel like I can be myself without thought. It shocked me because almost two years has passed since we last spoke. Curiosity of what it said, fear of what it said, lack of energy for another go around of an emotional rollercoaster, and certainty that there’s no point on reading it I decided not to click it.

Afterwards, I look over at the little circle and notice he changed his profile picture and my eyes widened. A cold feeling of dread flushed throughout my body rapidly. Catching my breath feeling as though an empty pit in the stomach. It was a girl. Although small I knew it was his girlfriend and the background was red.

Then the scene changed to a point of view of a desktop screen. Resembling a slide show, a Polaroid photo with the transition of summersaulting from the right of the screen towards the middle. As it entered the screen I noticed it was clearly her but it was her in my booth where I work as if it was her job. Although it all happened so fast it was also slow enough to see. As soon as it stopped artistically titled slightly to the right my eyes opened.

I was upset but still tired so I quickly tried to let it go and fell back asleep. The feeling of dread crept in instantly. Immediately I knew where it was headed and I didn’t want to go back in to find out so I forced myself awake.

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I decided to get out of bed even though I was hella tired.

To get it out of my mind quickly I began to analyze it.

Conclusion: Even though I am curious and I want to know… Time and time and time again has also proven that nothing will ever happen. Although progress had been made throughout the years… I need to accept my limited energy.

I use my dreams in different ways. Analyze them. Or use them to try out different scenarios of how to handle a situation I’m dealing with in real life. Or a random scenario that could happen in the future. Or just go with the flow to see where my dreams will take me. It feels like another reality on a different planet running on the same time line as this reality. I can feel everything. Completely real. BUT I can tell the difference. So that’s good! I am aware within my dream that I am dreaming. Sometimes I take control. Super cool. But dreams also suck sometimes.
What I take from these dreams are lessons for everyone and everything not just one singular person or situation. This time it’s about any situation where I am curious and want to know more or get into it. Such as addressing something regarding my health, something about someone’s life, saying too much about myself, saying the wrong thing, wondering if someone dislikes me, making someone happy, putting my emotions out there, etc. I should just chill and reserve my energy. No need to panic.

Breathe.

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Who else feels the same way about dreams?? Dreams are so cool. Fun to analyze. Fun to just experience utter strangeness and random fuggn stuff, right?! Like, wth lol I love talking about dreams. Got one? Share!

Thank you for stopping by 🙂