BaCk!!!

Ok…so you probably didn’t miss me but I’ve missed you guys! Nothin’ much has been going on…same sh*t different week…I’m working two jobs now…one at a telecommunications place and the other at…drumroll please……………………….Target…oh yeah….lol…well at least I get 10% off right??? I’m trying to find a good point about the job that sucks ass…lol

Money is money…no matter what you do…I’m going back to school spring semester 2002…I’ve changed my major though…it’s not veternary…I’ve always wanted to do it and I’ve been told since I was young that I couldn’t do it and that I wasn’t smart enough…well you know what fuck ’em…I CAN do it…and I’m going to. Granted that means 6 more years of school, but you know what it’s worth it to me…it’s what I want, that’s what matters right now…

Things are going semi alright at the moment…no huge bumps to slow me down…just speed bumps at times…and lets face it there will always be those.

Love life at the moment is…well non-exsistent thanks to myself…I want it that way for awhile I’m trying to find out what I want who I am where I’m going before I include someone in the fucked up world that is my life. It only seems fair to the other person, don’t you think?? *smiles* “J” says that I’m changing everyday and she notices it…but in a good way…I hope so.

“J” and I are thinking of moving back in with eachother…this should be a fun experience…again. I hope it’s not like last time that suck complete donkey ass…but we’ve both changed alot since then so it should be ok…(see I’m trying to convince myself that everything will be different this time, but in reality I know it will be the same and I’m dreading telling her NO). But I will eventually, and I know I’m just prolonging the pain in the ass that it is going to be telling her, but I love my best friend I don’t want to hurt her feelings…but I will to avoid getting into another mess…

Other than that…I’m plugging along as usual…later!~megs