1/18/02

Ok…so it’s been a little while since I’ve written.

Not alot going on to be honest, work, work, work, go out, and work some more. That’s my life now. It’s not as boring as it sounds…hmm…yes it is…lol But money is what I need and it seems since no one is giving to the Megan fund that I have to work to get it like everyone else…It’s not so bad, although I really don’t like my full time job all that much, so I’m looking for another…it’s too boring, and it’s too much work to not be compensated for. Plus…I don’t want to sound girly and all, but it makes me get dirty and well…I don’t like it…lol

Hmm…what else…I went out with Tom last saturday night and actually had a pretty good time…I’ve known him for about a month now and he’s interesting and can make me laugh which is good…but I talked to him last night and well he sort of pissed me off a bit. He asked me what I wanted from all of this and I said from all of what?? We’re just friends right?? and he said yeah…and then he said, but can we be friends with “benefits”??? *sigh*…if you have to ask…the answer will most likely be no…it’s not that he’s not attractive, it’s just…I don’t want to just have sex with people…what’s the point?? yeah..it’s fun…you get off…but I just don’t see what it’s good for between friends…I guess we all start out as friends, and then things lead to other stuff…but he doesn’t want that…and I’m not looking for just a fuck anymore…so I told him, how about we just stay friends and get our “benefits” somewhere else…he agreed.

Being alone doesn’t feel so hot anymore…in fact..it feels damn bad. But what are you gonna do…life goes on 🙂

ahh well, nothing else to say at the moment…later~megs

Sometimes u just get sick and tired of doing so or being so but you know what don’t let ur moment of sick and tiredness ruin u…i mean dun rush to things just because ue emotions get the better of you…you just got to control it thats what good about us humans…animals cannot contriol their emotions but we can….:) Live life n Love life n HAve fun~1

hey cutie..pardon the clitche but, you are not alone in being alone. looks like things aren’t going great..at least they are going though. and even though i’m a guy, i know what you mean about the whole sex thing. some people don’t take the time to get to know a person..they only see the surface. guess it’s them being shallow. if tom had actually seen you, bot inside and out, he probably >>>>>

would have wanted to be mroe than friends with benefits. *shrugs*..you’re a great girl megan, that tom or anyone else can’t see that is their loss. anyway, i’m gonna go now..i’ve babbled a little to long. later sweety.

I’ve never understood the friends with benefits thing cause if I was getting the so called “benefits” then they had the word “Girl” attached to the front of the word friend!