You THINK I would have learned my lesson, huh?

But my dumb ass didnt.

Just bought myself Plan B and took that shit right away.

Me and William fooled around again Sunday at like.. 1:00 in the morning. I drove ALLLL the way down to almost the freaking airport. But whatever.

So we climb in the back of my car… not exectly where I wanted to do this but eh. He jumped right into it, god damn. Just gave me two little kisses and bam, my pants were off. Again no condom. And then he was like "Im gonna stick it in." And I was just like whatever do it. I honestly didnt care at that point. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! He must not have put it in all the way the first time or whatever or didnt break me. But this time… I screamed and jumped away. It hurt so fucking bad. So we both laughed it off after I calmed down for a minute and then went back to doing everything else. Then that fucking bitch cums on my ass. WAY TO CLOSE FOR COMFORT FOR ME! I was pissed. I put my pants back on and we just sat for a second. And then he opened the door because it was hot as hell and foggy in the car. And once he did… we saw.

BLOOD. All over my backseat. All over my shirt and my hands. My backseat! MY NEW CAR! STAINED WITH MY FUCKING BLOOD! I knew when he went in it hurt but I didnt think I would fucking bleed THAT MUCH. I was FREAKING out.

He kept apologizing and saying it’ll be okay. We drove to Wal Mart, we each took our own cars but he called me and talked to me on the phone to keep me company and calm me down. So there were are… at like.. 2 in the morning at Wal Mart buying napkins and cleaing shit. He was sweet and gave me his jacket so I could take off my WHITE shirt cause it had blood on it. Thanksfully I had a tank top under but it was cold so I was thankful he had a jacket. The whole time in Wal Mart he was cracking jokes to lighten the mood and make me feel better. After a while, it was funny. But I was still concerned about my seats. My mom thought I was at Shelia’s house… so how do I explain the CRAZY stains in my car?!

We tried cleaning it but it wouldnt come out. We went out separate ways home and he still called me to talk to me untill we got home. He got home first so right after we hung up I was calling Brit, Mary, Nessa and Melanie but no one was answering their phone. I just REALLLLLLLLLLY needed someone to talk to. I got home around 2:45 and couldnt sleep. I finally went to bed at 4 after talking to an old friend about it. He was nice and calmed me down and was just there for me. It was just.

So, Monday I had to go to school. And it was so hard to wake up and be alive. I got to my voice lesson and since me and Ms. Hunt are soooo close, I told her. And… even worse.. William is her student as well. And she knows how he is. A player and a charmer… She was like "SIT DOWN! Lets talk about it." So we used my whole hour lesson to talk about it. She let me cry and stuff. I told her EVERYTHING. She even offered me money to get Plan B and I could pay her back but I couldnt do that.

And then I saw William a bunch of times at school and we talked and joked like we always do… nothing really changed. I am really embarssed though. And I told him that and I kept saying I was sorry, but he said it was all fun and a learning experience. And I asked him why I broke this time and he was like "I dont even know… hoestly, when you came over to my house and I was fingering you, I had 4 fingers in you!" So I dunno what the fuck happened. Maybe he just hit it right and bam.

Then he walked me to my second lesson and actully came into the classroom and tlaked to Ms Hunt for a bit. And when he left she was like "I could kill him." I felt so bad. Im so glad I told her. She made me feel better and stuff. And she told me some of her experiences as well… so it was cool.

Anyways, I stayed the night at Brits. We stayed up till 6 this morning fooling around on the webcam with her boyfriend and shit. It was fun. Then we woke up and I was like "I wanna go to Planned Parenthood and get Plan B." So we drove down there and I bought it. $25. After that we were gonna go get our tattoos retouched but my neighbor called and needed me to babysit. And I cant turn down money right now since Im off EVERYDAY this week! So that fucking sucks. Plus I just spent money on damn Plan B shit.

So in about an hour Im done babysitting and then me and Brit and Carlos are gonna go get our tattoos retouched then we’ll probably find something to do.