This was my first time

 I never thought about the fact that I could be someone’s first. 

Have you? When we were younger, yeah it was more usual and expected but not when you’re 25. Not when your a girl because to my knowledge, all boys have slept with someone at one point of their life or another. Esp those who are out going, good looking, with long term relationships, with having it right in front of his face. 

I just came home from meeting with AA.. I went with my swim suit so we could go hot tubbing! 
It was pouring out today and the rain was cold and heavy. We got out of the hot tub and went outside, ran around like a bunch of weirdos. He picked me up and kissed me in the middle of the rain. It was nothing short of a movie. 

(He’s staying at a hotel right now that his company is expensing him because they think his home base is out of state and he gets to expense everything to his corporate card lol)

So I say to him (as we are outside) 

"Let’s go through the front entrance (in our bathing suits) and act all normal." needless to say, he was down, so we walked through the lobby, EVERYONE’S head turned, we were DRENCHED! lol. 

Went back to the hot tub for a while and then we came upstairs to his room. We dried off and as he sat down on the bed, he grabbed my hand and made me sit on his lap while watching tv. His hands slide from my chest to my stomach to my lady part downstairs. This boy knows what hes doing with his fingers. I love it. 

It’s weird though, everytime someone goes down on me, I always tell them to stop. I feel so wet to begin with that I feel almost..embarassed. He didn’t take no for an answer and when I was completely turned on, he asks me how I feel…

"Good, I want you.."
Him: "Want me to do this?" (touching me) 
I nod 
Him: "With my fingers?"
I shake my head
Him: "Then? how?"
"With you in me."

It was like the moment we all wait for in the movie where the guy kisses the girl because they;ve had this tension between them. Yeah. 

We finish up and he’s laying on top of me..
"Can I tell you a secret" He says 
Me: "Yeah, of course"
"This was my first time" He replies

Oh. my. goodness. 

omg omg omg omg omgomg omgomgomgomg. I’m schocked. 

I completely believe him. He was nervous, super short and unsure of what he was doing. 
"Was I good?" He asked. 
I smile and tell him yes. 

I feel like a kid. Like it was my first time. I loved it. I’ve wanted him for 8 years..I have him, I finally have him. 

I’m his first. I’m not sure if thats a good or bad thing. I never thought I’d be anyones first.