Submerged in your love

 Cloud 9 was what I felt months ago and this, that I feel today, is something much more than that. 

I give this metaphor to everyone that asks me how it feels to be with him -again or finally – and my answer is always the along the same lines. Explaining the desire, need, want for him and then finally having him. 

Like an imported dessert, you order it, you wait for it and it takes time to arrive. Meanwhile, you research it, know everything about it and anxiously wait for it. It takes long to arrive so you do get a little impatient or hopeless at times but you never stop craving it. And then it happens, it arrives, you open the package and unwrap the covers as quickly as possible only to take a bite into what seems like heaven. Heaven. Craving that heaven and then finally getting it. But it’s not what you expected, its much more than that. So much more that it’s nothing short of amazing. 

This is my love life. lol. 

I am in heaven, everything about this boy and how he feels about me is surreal. I didn’t expect this much and as much as I wished to be with him all my life, never in a million years did I think, it would happen like this. 

He told his parents about me earlier this week. This is a big step for both him and I cause we didn’t want to tell our parents initially. Why? Simply because we didn’t want it to be a big deal and while I never thought he would want to do it as much or even more than me, he was the first one to do it. I was informed of it after the deed was done, he asked if I was okay, if I wanted it too. 

Of course. 

I want every single part of it. I want to be with him for the rest of my life. He’s very tangled in my life but I’d like to integrate him in every equation of my life. Family, friends, career, life. Integrated with support, love and care. 

What more could I want? 

I have the best thing, the most perfect scenario. The man I think I’ve always loved, always desired, always felt like I needed is finally the man I have. 

I can’t explain what I feel, or what I go through everyday with these feelings, with this man. but It’s nothing short of amazing. 

and that is the single thought, I come back to the most. 
He is everything I wanted.