Social Media

I think we all have this tendency to become attached to objects, people and anything else we have contact with. For example, my issue is social media. Before myspace and facebook, twitter and instagram, we didn’t have this urgency to show off every single detail of our lives to others. There were phone calls and picture messages and memories just for the sake of memories. While social media now has the ability to reunite us with someone we haven’t spoken to in years, it also gives us an outlet to inflict pain to ourselves.

Addicted, we get addicted to expressing ourselves through these means of communication. While everyone and no one listens to our complaints, our opinions, our struggles, our happiness… we continue to show it through facebook, twitter, instagram, etc. Somehow these sites become priorities on our imaginary list of things to do in life. Every time we are bored, we check our walls, our timelines to see whats going on, to keep ourselves informed with everything and nothing at the same time.

To break this habit is hard. While I consider myself a strong person, I have strong morals, a clear idea of what I can and cannot do; I’m not easy to break. I find it hard to break out of this habit. Lately, I started realizing how I put too much of myself, my life out there for everyone to speculate. While I don’t care about what random people may think, it started to bother me. There was no mystery left. What does she do? Where has she been? Who does she see? It was all out there for anyone to turn around and access at any given moment. Although, a sweep recently has put everything under control, I am not a 100% happy with where it is left.

It wasn’t until two days ago when the pain we cause ourselves, came too close to home for me. I was hurt by word I had spoken myself that others turned around on me. I was shocked and slowly in the last 24 hours I distanced myself from this unnecessary hassle of others opinions bothering me. Why don’t I turn away from it all, once and for all? I’m addicted. Addiction doesn’t break that easy. You stop something too fast; you always come back to it, so you have to come to terms in what your plan is to stay away from it. It’s out of sight; I’ve decided to only look at it when I’m online via my computer and nothing else. I uninstalled foursquare, deleted twitter and virtually stopped using instagram. I somehow can’t stop from facebook because not only does it have a way of me connecting with my old pals and family members from out of town, it brings a sense of involvement. It’s silly, I know. I’ve decided to limit my use on it and deleted all things unnecessary but I haven’t stopped. There can be a healthy balance, I believe, so I don’t have to stop just moderate usage.