insecurities

 I go through this over and over and over again. With him. Just him. 

I become very confident in the way that he feels about me and then in an instant, I shrivel down to the what ifs. 

Am I not keeping his interest?
Is he playing around with me?
What am I to him?
Will he walk away from me again?

I told myself that I won’t let this happen again but here I am feeling this way. 
Maybe it’s cause of the fact that we had sex yesterday. I feel very attached to him, I guess I always has and I think that may have amplified it. 

Not sure. 

So I ‘m meeting up with him tomorrow maybe for dinner or afterwards and I’m gonna talk to him. 

I don’t wanna mess around.
I don’t wanna be walked over.
I don’t wanna be just someone’s time pass.
I don’t want him to disappear on me, I can handle the truth.

If he’s "not sure" then I can’t be in limbo. 
I can’t figure him out and it’s the most frustrating thing to me.  

I feel almost depressed because of this. Because of no reason essentially. 

sigh.