I was speechless

All I remember ever since I’ve met you is how you make me feel. 

You are that one guy in my life that I’ve always wanted, I’ve cried praying to God to make you mine, to make you want me, to make you be with me. You’re the guy who I’ve never been able to get out of my mind no matter who I’m with. 

And I don’t know why. I can’t figure out if I’ve been in love with you or it’ because you were my first long-ish relationship, if you were the first one I’ve ever been intimate with (no sex) in a manner that I hadn’t before. I just can’t figure out why. 

We’ve been so infatuated with each other ever since the beginning of this year that I feel safe to repeat that I like you. I give you gifts, not for the hope that you’ll stay with me that way but because I want to put so much effort in you. I want to give you my all and honestly, I’ve never been like this before. The ironic part is, everytime I do something out of the ordinary for you, I expect you to get freaked out and think I’m too clingy and run away from me. But you’ve stayed. 

I sat on top of you, the other night, and looked into your eyes because I felt this insane urge of being with you and told you "I’ve always liked you..and now that I have you, it’s like a dream" 

I wasn’t lying. This is like a dream. Being with you, spending so much time with you, having you WANT me, hearing you say you’re crazy about me too. It’s a dream.

and then there it was, something I feel like I’ve been waiting 10 years to hear, something that I have never heard the way you said. You told me you’re in love with me and in the midst of my conversation, I was speechless. Literally. 

You made me feel like I’m one in a million. Like all this time I’ve waited is suddenly worth it. Like I’m on a cloud.

The day after that, I sat and starred out the window and repeated those words you said to me. I was in shock. This has been a dream but it was my reality. 

You are my reality.