it’s a charmed life

anna convinced me to get a live journal and it’s killing my od time. over a month!!! that’s ridic.

there are a lot of things i need to write, but i just can’t. ben thinks writing helps me, and it does. but i’ve gone farther than i thought i would. farther than i have since i was 15. it’s not good..but it’s not bad either. i feel in control. i hope i am.

then again, i have no idea how this could mean i’m in control at all. it’s probably horrible.