breakin’

i’m going to an all american rejects concert with kaleigh on april 11th!! i’m so excited. i listen to the cd on repeat in my car, it’s amazing.

neither j nor benny called me at all while they were gone. they didn’t even text. i tried not to let it bother me. i worked a lot, and filled up my time with other plans, plus i had a cold and my period (ugh). monday came really fast. i was nervous, because i didn’t know what to think. i knew things would be fine with ben, they almost always are now. but jeremy? he said so many times "i’ll call you, i’ll call you." i didn’t expect him to, but when he didn’t it made me worried. i didn’t know what to think. so i tried to push it out of my mind.

i talked to him on fb chat on monday night for a few minutes, about how we had to work together friday night. and then i asked how nyc was, and he said it was the best time he’s ever had. so i said he should call me sometime and tell me about it, but i was going to go to bed then. and he ended the convo with "love you, miss you." way more than i expected.

yesterday he called at 4:30, i told him i was still at school because my car was getting fixed and i didn’t have a ride until 5. and he said "i’m driving into town right now, do you want a ride?" but i had to say no, because i’d already asked cute joe to take me home, though i would’ve ditched him for jeremy in a second normally. jeremy askedwhat i was doing after i worked on friday and i said going to megan’s party and he said "oh, i was invited to that too. i guess that’s where i’ll be as well." or something. and then i said i should probably go work on homework, but he should call me later. he said he would. we said goodbye. we hung up.

i went to bed at 10pm. at 12:30 i woke up.

he never called. again.