Joe said that to me tonight and, even though the words are so simple, it meant so much to me. We stayed up talking last night until after midnight again(we’ve done this a lot lately) then he had to get up at 5:45am to go to work from about 7am until 7:30pm. We were only able to talk for about 30 minutes or so since he passed out at 8:30pm but as we were hanging up on Skype I said “I’m glad I at least got to see you for a little bit, was able to tell you goodnight and such.” His reply was the “I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

Things have been great with Joe. He has been extremely loving and still spending every free minute with me. He randomly tells me he loves me a lot during our video calls which is sweet. I have always done it but I love that he does it now as well and also tells me in every way possible that he misses me and wishes we were physically together. We spent as much time as we could on Skype Christmas Eve, Christmas and New Years Eve as well. It was about 6hrs on Christmas between the morning and evening calls then on New Years Eve it was about 8hrs. On normal days it anywhere from 3 to 5hrs. It definitely helps with the fact that we are so far away and that it has been a month since we’ve been able to touch each other. I always tell him how much I miss his face and can’t wait to kiss it which always makes him smile…man, those dimples make me melt!!!

Cruella is still trying to get him to take her back, of course. She’s so delusional that it isn’t funny. He is going to tell her this weekend that the divorce needs to be filed and they need to figure out which way it’s going to be done because there is no way there is ever going to be reconciliation…which he has already told her several times they are never getting back together yet she keeps trying…and trying…and trying. She has seriously tried every tactic in the book…it’s pathetic…and every try she has been so narcissistic. I really need to figure out how to stop letting her get under my skin. Anyhow, it would be nice if the papers get filed this coming week. I have been trying to hold off visiting again until after it’s all final, which will be 31 days if she doesn’t contest it…she can’t touch the house itself and she already completely emptied the contents of just about everything(he took pictures). As long as it finalizes before February is over…otherwise I will probably lose my mind. My kiddos dad and his girlfriend(my best friend) are going on a cruise during the week of Valentine’s Day so I won’t be able to spend that with Joe anyway due to my kiddo having school. They actually wanted us to go on the cruise with them(all of us…Joe, kiddo and I) but since Joe can’t right now I opted out as well so it will be something he and I can experience together for the first time since we’ve never been.

On a different note I have been sick since Christmas. I finally broke down and went to the doctors on Thursday for antibiotics which will hopefully help because it’s kicking my butt. It started with upper respiratory then spread to sinus’ and my ears. Needless to say, it has been a miserable couple of weeks but at least my kiddo has been on winter break from school and therapies.

I saw a friend is doing the January writing prompts…today’s(well yesterdays technically) is “Insecurities”. I was actually going to touch on that this entry but I’m exhausted and will try to do an entry on it tomorrow.