2005 – a Year in Review

2005
My Year In Review

For those of you who haven’t read me all year this is a good place and time to catch up 🙂 A quick reference to the important things that happened this year (as much as I can remember anyways)

January

• I felt love, pain, joy, sadness, anger, excitement, jealousy, weariness, confusion, compassion, and hope..
• I started writing on Open Diary
• Don officially left Iraq for station in Kuwait… the end of his service in the war
• Got offered my promotion at work
• Sent off my enrollment for school… big step!
• Realized had no goal for my life
• Set up some goals to meet for the month
• Failed to meet said goals.
• Termed my life a "rollercoaster of emotion"
• Admitted that I lie to myself every day
• Began plans for my summer vaction

February

• Met Daniel
• Don arrived home to Louisiana
• Started my course work for my Auto Technician degree
• Officially took my place as a mechanic at work
• Turned 25
• Had the best birthday of my life
• Once again failed to meet my monthly goals

March

• Got to carpool with Todd to work for 2 weeks *wink wink*
• Had tonsilitis 🙁
• Booked our cabin in Tennessee
• Jason was handed his 2-1/2 year sentance
• Fell in love with Ben & Jerry’s Magic Brownies ice cream
• Survived

April

• Depression set in
• Got rear-ended
• Realized how boring my life is without Erica

May

• Passed out at work
• Went play at Mouse’s house *wink wink*
• Went to the Smokey Mountains
• White Water Rafting!!!
• Gerri got married!!
• Saw the Beach Boys perform at Casino Magic – Bay St. Louis (sniff)

June

• Performed in my first dance recital
• Finally bought a digital camera
• Got a new hairstyle
• Jason got his transfer to federal prison
• Failed at my planned financial organization
• Survived

July

• Realized my fear of commitment
• Became a "regular" at the Tropical Isle
• Met El and lot of new New Orleans locals
• Found out that tourtist in the Quarter do NOT know where Seasame Street is
• Admitted to everyone that I feel lost
• Realized my true fear of being stuck and never moving forward
• Had GROUPIES on Broubon Street!!

August

• Spent some time with Mags in Lafayette
• Met Josh
• Took my Anual trip to North Carolina
• Read "A Walk to Remember"
• Went Kyaking for the first time
• Got to spend another week carpooling with Todd 😀
• Gave my cigs away thinking I’d quit smoking
• Found out Mrs. Elsie has cancer
• Hurricane Katrina

September

• Hurricane Rita
• Got in a wreck
• Missed New Orleans alot.

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• Concluded that everything changed for me when I was 19.
• Admitted that I have a problem drowning my sorrows in alcohol.
• Found a bit of clarity
• Josh disappeared out of my life
• Started opening up to my OD groupies (I love you guys!!)
• Found out my cousin Aaron is an asshole
• Got addicted to MySpace
• Found out Fractured had regrouped as Slow the Knife
• Failed to quit smoking

November

• Started seeing a psychologist
• Saw Josh Rowland play for the first time in a VERY long time
• Realized how good of a friend Nikki has really been to me
• Found out I’m clinically depressed
• Made a conscious decision to stop smoking again
• Thought alot about love
• Saw Slow the Knife play
• Failed to quit smoking
• First Thanksgiving without Gerri
• Fucked Todd
• Admitted that I was in love with Milton
• Admitted that I was falling in love with Todd
• Put up the Christmas tree without Gerri 🙁

December

• Told Todd how I felt about him
• Got fucked over by Todd
• Found out Todd is an asshole
• Changed the look of my OD
• Changed my attitude
• First Christmas Eve without Gerri
• Started plans for New Year’s Eve

There are many things I’d change this year, but its not in my power. At least I feel like I’ve moved forward a little towards making myself better. I still feel like crap most of the time, and I still cry myself to sleep, but at least I’ve survived this year.

To all, hopes for a wonderful 2006, I know I’m praying for one.

Happy New Year!