R.I.P. Janet Manuele

Last Sunday (Easter) my inspiration died. My Aunt Janet passed away from a heart attack brought on from heart disease. My Aunt Janet was everything that i ever wanted to be. She was the most beautiful person i have ever known. Inside and out. She was a very strong christian and an awesome person in general. I loved her so much. I never met her until i was about 14. I went out to MO, to visit her and my grandmother and i just fell in love. I cant believe what a great person she was. She was EVERYTHING i want to be. A great mother, wife, and christian. She lived in a small town and everyone there loved her. From the first time i went to visit her i just loved her. I went back every summer since then except last year because i was working. I went to Mexico with her and my family a couple years back and had so much fun. She was so full of life and love that i just cant believe that she is actually gone. She was the type that was always doing for everyone else, and never let anyone do for her. She had her own restuarant and used to be the manager of my uncles medical clinic. Its so strange that she is gone, because i just talked to her on Friday. I called her to tell her about me having my baby and she told me that i needed to come visit her this 4th of July, that was one of her favorite holidays. She always had tons of people over. She said that i needed to bring my daughter so she can meet her, and that she knew she was going to love her so much, just like she loved me. She always said that me and my sisters were her favorite nieces. She was my favorite aunt, and i was looking forward to going to see her, and her meeting my baby and my boyfriend. I knew that they would love her just as much as i did. Just as much as everyone did. I had the chance to go out there for her funeral, but i just couldnt do it. I had to go out there for my grandmothers funeral the December before last and that was hard enough, i know that i couldnt do it with my aunt because i loved her so much. She always said that she couldnt wait to go home and that if Jesus showed her the light that she would go because she was ready and that she knew that heaven was going to be beautiful. Whenever i was going through something and i needed someone i always called my aunt. We would sit on the phone and pray and my prayers were always answered, and it was because God always answered my aunts prayers. I just cant believe that she is actually gone. I am having a really hard time with this, i still havent completely broke down about it yet, and i know that i need to. But she wouldnt want me to cry for her because she is where she always wanted to be, with God. So i love you Aunt Janet and i’ll see you when i get there. 

RIP Aunti J-LO