You’re just no good to have around

My head is just all over the place. It says everything that I’m making so many entries. I’ve been in one of those moods recently where I just have so many thoughts in my head. I have to get the all down to get them in some kind of order because they start to blur into one another and I don’t know what to do with them.

really annoyed about my listeners clients. Well, OK, just a little annoyed. I was meant to be seeing my new client today but I went to her form to tell her that I couldn’t. I asked people at the door (because it was lunch time) and someone shouted "DACY!! Some listeners want to speak to you!!" and I was like ‘you fucker shut the hell up poor girl". That’s the bad thing about us doing these talks to the year 7 classes, they all know who we are now so you can kinda guess someone is seeing a listener when they are walking round with one of us! So yeah, I told her that I needed to meet her tomorrow because I had to see Tasha urgently. There is a big group of girls who are spread between the listeners. And they have *all* fallen out. *sighs and remembers how nasty little girls can be when they fall out with their friends* So, we had to organise this meeting with all of them and all of the listeners and maybe the listeners leader because it keeps happening and they really upset eachother. So I cancelled Dacy and…none of them turned up. So me Hubbard and Emily sat there like lemons and just ended u going to the common room. I could’ve seen Dacy. I’m sure because it was her first listeners thing she would have been worrying about it since we organised it Friday and then I put it off a day for no reason. Urgh.

My cutting today…*sighs* Nothing bad happened today but I got home from 6th form and I had to clench my fists to try to stop myself from going upstairs to cut. It didn’t work for more than 30 minutes. I havent cut in the afternoon for ages…and I want to now. It’s not normally that I want to unless somethings upset me but today *sighs again* I dunno.

Suddenly I don’t feel like writing.