Sometimes…

I just want to STRANGLE her. She’s so selfish. She needs a good slap. A shake from the shoulders so she wakes up to the real world and forgets all about her life wrapepd in cotton wool by mummy and daddy.

She’s driving me crazy. I lied and said I can’t get 6th May off work so I can’t go to her nan’s party. Apparently that’s a shame coz she was looking forward to that. Yeah well I’ve been looking forward to a lot of things with you but you only ever organise them for when YOU’RE free. Seriously, I don’t think I’m beng stupid…maybe I’m the selfish one…but I thought that when you organise to do something with someone you don’t arrange it for a day you know they aren’t free. Or, if you think they might be able to come ‘for a few hours’ you check with them first. Or…how about thinking?? Just give it a slight thought and see whether it might be possible.

That Thursday is Rachel Steven’s birthday. My group of friends call ourselves the birthday team. Does that imply that we make a big deal out of eachother’s birthdays? Apparently not. We must rethink the name. So I shall be busy all day. You know that. But you thought that, maybe, I might be just busy in the evening. Fair enough (even though i’ve told you a million times I’m not). But pop to yours for a few hours?? It would take me roughly 3 and a half hours to travel to yours. I would be there what, 3 hours? 4 hours? 3 and a half hours travelling time back to mine. And that’s not including waiting time between trains by the way. So roughly 10 – 11 hours out of my best friends birthday who I have seen ONCE since new years is NOT a few hours out of my day.

Oh and also, you remember my REAL best friend, Josh? The guy that I am closest to? The guy that doesn’t really have too many friends and is a little down and I’m trying to look after as best I can when we’er basically on different sides of the country? Him? You remember?? Well it looks like today was possibly my only chance to see him. I think I may have seen him once since new years too. And you know how many times we’ve TRIED to see eachother but it’s fallen through because of important lectures or work or whatever. I might be able to see him Friday or Saturday. MIGHT. And even if I can…he saved today free for me (and Tuesday but that fell through – besides the point) and Saturday is normally his day with his dad. (you know the dad he lives in a different place to coz of uni and then on uni holidays he’s in a different city with his mum coz that’s where his holiday job is?

So basically you lazy, fat, selfish, childish cow…you suck.

Your dear friend, ‘Lon’