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I had to come back online. I tried to go to bed and have a rest and get som sleep or something. But, I’m staying at Jason’s tomorrow. And I’m kinda panicking. I started to cut. But I stopped myself. So I’m jjust kind of amusingmyself to keep myself away from cutting…but I don’t know what to do…

blah. my ribs hurt. It’s weird. When I cut they don’t sting or anything. It only hurts when I’m actually cutting. I guess because they scab  over etc. But started cuts…man. It stings like feck. And my ribs are swollen. Well they always swell up when I cut. *sigh* really shouldnt do it right near where my bra sits. When I lean over to type my bra moves down slightly and touches it. It hurts.

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I used to do it on my legs a lot, but then I actually started being all girlie and wearing skirts so it showed up a lot. It doesn’t hurt as bad though.

I used to do it on my legs a lot, but then I actually started being all girlie and wearing skirts so it showed up a lot. It doesn’t hurt as bad though.

August 9, 2005

Cutting’s bad for you. My last girlfriend used to cut. I got her to stop by making her a promise: Every time she cut, I would cut three times as many, three times as long, and three times as deep. She stopped that very day. I’m kinda glad; I don’t like cutting myself, because I DO like it. I enjoy the pain, so I don’t let myself start a destructive habit. (cont’d)

August 9, 2005

Cutting’s bad for you. My last girlfriend used to cut. I got her to stop by making her a promise: Every time she cut, I would cut three times as many, three times as long, and three times as deep. She stopped that very day. I’m kinda glad; I don’t like cutting myself, because I DO like it. I enjoy the pain, so I don’t let myself start a destructive habit. (cont’d)

August 9, 2005

(cont’d) About Jason: afore-mentioned girlfriend broke up with me so she could “be young and have fun.” She ran my heart through the mud and put it back inside me. I still love her, though, and I always will. Sometimes I even hope we’ll get back together. And trying to protect him is no better reason. Another ex did that to me, tried to keep from hurting me. (cont’d)

August 9, 2005

(cont’d) About Jason: afore-mentioned girlfriend broke up with me so she could “be young and have fun.” She ran my heart through the mud and put it back inside me. I still love her, though, and I always will. Sometimes I even hope we’ll get back together. And trying to protect him is no better reason. Another ex did that to me, tried to keep from hurting me. (cont’d)

August 9, 2005

(cont’d) She ended up hurting me more by breaking up with me than if we’d stayed together. Of course, she also cheated on me, but that’s not the point. I hope you aren’t really considering ending your life. There is not a single way you could do it without hurting someone. Someone I know was killed in an accident a few days ago, (cont’d)

August 9, 2005

(cont’d) She ended up hurting me more by breaking up with me than if we’d stayed together. Of course, she also cheated on me, but that’s not the point. I hope you aren’t really considering ending your life. There is not a single way you could do it without hurting someone. Someone I know was killed in an accident a few days ago, (cont’d)

August 9, 2005

(cont’d) and it turns out he had a lot more friends than anyone knew or expected. It’s the same for you; you have a lot more friends than you think. Many people care for you from a distance. Take those here on OD, for example. I care about you just as much as I do all my friends, and that’s quite a lot. ::sigh:: There’s a lot more I want to say, but I’ve talked enough for now. With a hug,

August 9, 2005

(cont’d) and it turns out he had a lot more friends than anyone knew or expected. It’s the same for you; you have a lot more friends than you think. Many people care for you from a distance. Take those here on OD, for example. I care about you just as much as I do all my friends, and that’s quite a lot. ::sigh:: There’s a lot more I want to say, but I’ve talked enough for now. With a hug,

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