Ol / Apple

Yah, so…boredm (sp?) has kicked in. i really have nothing interesting to do.

It’s weird, i always look forward to half term starting but REALLY…i mean HONESTLY…

time off of school is kinda rubbish

everyone just gets bored hehe

so ironic.

Yah, so…me and Apple still arent talking.  He’s being a complete idiot. well actually…i said this was gonna be an honest diary so he’s isn’t. it was just me over reacting and getting psycho jealous on myself and being stubborn so we’re still nto talking.

everyone who knows him knows he would never be nasty to anyone, lol. he’s kindve a dweeb…but a sweet gentle dweeb who is kinda funny and…i dunno…he’s not a loser but doesnt stand up for himself.

Yah, that’s what i’m trying to say, lol

Ol phoned me this morning. well, it was kindve midday but iwas still in bed, lol so i was still half dead. i was sloooow to respond to anything he said. im sure he thought i just wasnt interested in talking…it’s just my brain hadnt walmed up and everytime he said something, i froze and couldnt think of anything to say back…hehe…im pissing my pants about it right now. im such a loser lol.  oh well.  friday was the day he left. i went to see him at work (because he asked me to…said if ididnt go i didnt love him) and spoke to hime for about 2 minutes before he left. he was acting really dodgy.i dont know what was weird about him but he was talking to me strangely. he even sent an apology text saying sorry for being weird. he kinda snapped at me…hope ihavent done anything.guess ill fnd out when he gets back from london…

i had a bit of a cry last night. well i always cry (lol) but i got myself in a bit of a mess.

ended up throwing all of the photos of me and Apple in a storage box in my room so i cant see them. put all of his stuff in a carrier bag (i have got a lot of stuff of his from the past 5 years (lol) and threw that in there too. i want to give him back all of the presents as well…to show him how angry i am…but my new ring and all my teddies and jewellery and tops and bags that he’s bought me are soooo nice. i dont wanna get rid of all my teddies hehe. dilemma.

i dont like how i keep skipping between Ol and Apple. i think i shoudl stop talking about them

*whispers* i have nothing else to talk about

All my love,  Purple Eyeshadow x