my day, shopping,meeting the crazy girl

Ok, first things first, *sends some majorly sulky looks in Henry’s direction* You promised me an entry Mr Young.

Next..today. My oh my. Today was jolly fun. I woke up late so I had to wash my hair etc, dry and straighten my hair, get dressed, do my makeup, pack my bag and do all the other little things you do in the morning in about 20-25 minutes. Baring in mind I have *very* thick hair which i spend time blowdrying to get it to look flat..that was a major record. If only I had washed my hair last night, all would have been fine. So, I could *not* be late to school because we have OFSTED in looking at our school. My head of 6th form would have gone made. So I walked rather quickly and got there just after the bell for registration. woop. then..I had a free period. *tries to think back* I don’t think I did anything in that free..finished waking  up. Oh, no, not true..I looked through some psychology stuff about the cognitive and psychodynamic approaches.

Then physics. Got paired with someone I don’t think I’ve ever spoken to – Tom. He’s one of the ‘populars’ but..also seems a bit dumb. I’m being mean, I’m sure he’s not..I just don’t know him. We have to prepare a seminar to do Friday on the photoelectric effect and CCDs. fun.

Then I had a free. Me Zoe and Josh went into town to do a bit of shopping for Josh. It’s his birthday Sunday and we’re going out Friday night to the party of a girl who shares his birthday and Monday night as his first proper night on the town. yay. So he wanted a couple of new tops. Me and Zoe bullied him into trying a t-shirt and tanktop in Burtons. We got him trying on loads of stuff (we always do and he gets really annoyed with us hehe) and he finally said "Actually..I quite like this tanktop…" Which, as far as Josh goes, is like him yelling "OMG THIS IS SO NICE!" so I took them from him and paid on my card because I get 25% off on Burton stuff. I told him not to bother paying me afterwards because it could be half his present from me. After my discount it only came to just over £11 so I’ll give him an extra tenner towards Monday night or something.

Then we went back to Topshop (we had already looked all around Top shop and River Island before Burtons) and he got one of the tops we said we liked last time we took him shopping. It’s really nice. I paid for that on my card too becaise I get 25% off there too haha. But he gave me the money back.

Then we headed to the Globe for lunch. Had 5bean chili *winks at Henry*. *rubs tummy* Nearly ended up being late for afternoon registration. hah. But made it just in time..and my teacher was late. Fucker I could’ve walked slower. We had people from different unis coming to talk to us about uni life in registration. *sighs* In other words, pompous Cambridge students who think they know everything and call a social life "chess club". lol, OK, they weren’t that bad. A couple of them seemed quite..dare I say it…fun..or even..cool?!

Half way through one of the people talking I was called out of the class. Mr Stone wanted to introduce me to a new listeners client that he had assigned to me. On the way walking to his office he started talking about her perhaps using it as an excuse to skive and that I should watch out for that but also that she obviously had major problems. Then he mentioned that she was Jacqueline Bloy’s sister. I was like…"what?" Jackie was the friend of mine who killed herself in October (man, was it that long ago?) in the same week my 2 friends were killed in a car crash. She jumped out of an ambulance. Poor girl. Her family really made her suffer. SO yeah, now I’m councilling her little sister. I haven’t spoken to her yet. I’ve introduced myself, we organised a time to meet and gave her the general quick chat you have to show her she shouldnt worry about meeting me coz I’m nice *rolls eyes*

Then I walked back to form. I nearly started crying. I’ve never worried about my listening before. I’m a good listener. Samaritans trained me good and proper lol. But..I know about her family. I *know* what goes on in that house. I know how fucked up Jackie was. I’m dreading it. What if I try and help and she still struggles just as much as Jackie? What if she goes the same way as Jackie? drinking, drugs, running away from home, suicide at 17? The words "down to me" keep swirling in my head and I keep stopping myself from typing them because I know it isn’t but…*sighs* I’m just worried.

Anyway, our first meeting is Friday. I just think..me and Jackie used to be friends. The family live a few doors away from Zoe..I’ve seen the arguments in the street. I’m slightly biased. I can’t help worrying I’ll get confused between what she’s not telling me and what I think is true about the family. Will I miss something important that she daren’t tell me because I assume she’s worrying about something that I’ve heard about the family? I just think that perhaps I’m not the best listener he could have assigned…plus..this girl is crazy. I get the shy clients. The ones who refuse to speak to anyone. That’s my speciality lol. The ones who sit in the corner with no friends and loads of bullies. I’m good at getting people out of their shells. I’ve never had a crazy girl. And trust me..just like Jackie..this girl’s got something going on with her.

back to my day..I had psychology last. It was good. The only part of psychology other than psychological abnormalities that I find interesting..approaches. mwahaha. You get a case study and you have to explain a behaviour in terms of the approaches and then evaluate the approach in regards to this..then say how it could be experimented using one of the approaches and then evaluate the experiment. it’s proper psychology. Not the memorising a kajillion studies and figures and concordance rates.  Today we had Henry. Henry thought he was better than everyone else at what he did. He thought that he would be promoted as soon as everyone else realised how great he was and stuff like that. He found it difficult to establish a difference between fantasy and reality. Enter behaviourist approach and psychodynamic approach. *ignore biological approach and cognitive approach* lol

man how much have I rambled. Well done if you read that all. *ends abruptly*

p.s. dramamama I’ll reply to you soon..promise *has to run*