mum’s home, phobias, the spine

Erm..yah..my mum’s home. I  got home from school today and she was sitting on the living room chair. I was like "What are you doing here??" and she said "They got rid of me – got fed up with me" I was like…"lord". Yeah so, she’s home. She’s not allowed to go to work. She’s not allowed to do anything basically. And I think that is very wise. I mean, she got breathless walking just from the living to the kitchen and back. Her blood level should be 14and when she went into hospital it was 6. It’s now like 7.4 or something so she’s still fucked basically lol but..they said she needs to rest and she can do that at home. With the hospital bug going round here it’s better her being at home. But she got pretty upset earlier. She started to feel really bad again and was crying. I felt so terrible..*sighs slightly* She has to go back soon so they can decide what they are going to. At least we know what’s wrong now. And it’s not cancerous so..phew.

Going to our town’s college tomorrow. Fun. For lectures on psychology. I can’t wait… Psychology today was pretty fun though. Everyone in the 2 classes is doing OCD as their anxiety disorder we have to know for the exam but the teachers moaned that everyone was doing it so me and Zoë are doing phobias. We were meant to do a documentary but..considering we only got told about it yesterday..and me and Zoë are bums (lol) we didn’t have time. SO basically it’s just a presentation on film. It sucks so bad. But a least we’re not talking about that same as everyone else. Actually, I’m glad we did phobias..ours seems so much more interesting. And we can laugh about it. I don’t really like that everyone is doing OCD because obviously some people notice some of my little things that I have to control that people reckon are OCD (but so arent..) and I just feel uncomfortable when someone is talking about a case study that does something that’s like something I do and people smile at me. Urgh. Anyway…Yeah so me and Zoë played some of Hitchcock’s film Vertigo  and related that to the clinical characteristics of phobias and the biological and psychodynamic explanations of theories. It rocked as a presentation but sucked ass as a documentary.

Biology today was amazing. I don’t really know why. Nothing interesting happened. It was no different to any other biology lesson with Mr I but we were starting our work on the spine and it is *amazing*. It’s just so…clever. lol. I actually listened to *everything* he said. Can you believe that? I can’t. Physics sucked because it’s physics. We were just doing a synoptic paper that ‘Stwick made up himself. It was..about windscreens. Or the first question was but I just couldn’t be bothered to work so I didn’t get past the first question lol. (don’t get me wrong it was 2 pages of subquestions..I wasn’t *that* bad lol

Anyway, I’ve run out of gas. *sends out some smiles*

Love and hugs, Lauren xx