Lonely at Uni, Dom’s Graduation,Bday plans
Well, university is still going well. The stuff I’m learning in my optical dispensing module is amazingly interesting but stupidly confusing. All the technical terms are pretty much the same with a couple of letters different. And for any one thing you can have wrong with your eyes there are about 10 different types (and each type has 3 different types) and they all have slight differences (physically and spelling related). Test next Monday for that module *sits down to memorise the differences between many different things*
I’ve been feeling a bit lonely this past weekend. Back home, I didn’t have that many friends who I could ring up and invite out. Don’t get me wrong I had a fair few friends – I spoke to just about everyone. I just wasnn’t comfortable that I was close enough to a lot of people to invite them out some place. Here, it’s great because I’m getting to know people who are more like me. It doesn’t bother me that there probably wont be that many people who I become close to. But, it can be quite lonely sometimes. It wasn’t good being at home thinking it was a place where I belong and there was noone there. Maybe I don’t belong there. But, I don’t belong here either…not yet anyway.. I dunno.
My brother’s graduation was on Saturday. Graduations are so amazingly boring. Got on with my brother’s girlfriend Kayleigh quite well though. And all of my grandparents came and none of them had to go home too early because of being ill and the day went smoothly. Oh and there was a whole table full of vegetarian snacks at the buffet!!
Saturday night I went out with Roxy and Zoe and Louise and Carly and that kinda people for Scales’ birthday. Had a good night for the most of it. It got to about 11 and we weretalking about going on to a club. I said let me buy us one more round of shots and went to the bar. While I was gone Zoe decided she wanted to go to the club straight away. She told Emily to come find me…which she did. Then we turned around and they had all gone. That’s so typical of them. I rang Zoe (most people wait outside if they are waiting for someone). She said she was on the way to the club “Thanks for waiting” “well we didn’t know where you were” “so you just left?” “sorry, come catch us up” “nah you’re alright me and Emily are going to a different club where some of emily’s friends are” “talk to you tomorrow?” “whatever zoe” *I hang up* She’s done that for years but if she gets left by anyone or dumps anyone she doesn’t talk to them for months and gets her family to hate that person as well. I hesitated before I went with them because they are so unreliable. meh. And I ended up leaving the club I went to with Emily early because I felt like a gooseberry with Emily andthe guy she’s just started seeing (i don’t know him or his friends so it was a little awkward). Oh and then Emily got her phone nicked when I had gone. *rolls eyes*
Anyway, it’s my birthday Thursday. Got quite a few plans for the surrounding days but it’s gonna be sad. I’m not seeing any of my family on my birthday and normally I would go into school and there would be posters of me looking stupid everywhere and my friends would bake me and cake or make me a jelly and it would be a big deal and all of my girly friends and me would go to a restaurant of my choice. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll have a good time. Waking up with Jordan, seeing some friends in the evening and having them stay over…introducing my close friends to my new uni friends. It will be fun! But…different and a little but lonely.*sigh*
yeah well…better go clean the kitchen. Sounds fun eh? Really needs doing. All the boys have just trashed it and none of us girls have gotten round to it yet.
Lauren xx