Loads of Tears

I’ve been crying really easily recently. It’s a couple of times a day I just start crying. I mean sometimes it’s just a couple of tears and a lump in my throat but sometimes I’m just laying on my bed sobbing. It’s just about anything. I guess it’s because I’m so tired and stressed out.

I’ve missed my grandad a lot recently. I mean I even had to pause typing that. I got to ‘missed’ and started crying. God, I just want him to come back. I just want to tell him what I’m doing. I just want him to know I’m…alright…I want him to know about me and Jordan. I want him to make jokes about me drinking. Saying I should be drinking more. Saying he hopes I’m being a real student and going clubbing. I just want my grandad. Oh god. Tears. Let’s stop typing now. I’m going to get in bed. I can’t do this. I just need to cut.