im just…urgh…confused?no, stressed.im stressed

i dont know whats wrong with me. i just cant cope at the mo. everything is getting to me and im just going crazy. for once, i just need someone to shut the hell up and listen to ME.i had a bit of a panic last night lol…i knwo you told me to stop being sorry but…im so sorry Henry. you shoulda just told me to shut up and go away.im just letting everything get to me. i guess i let things build up and then every so often have an evening where i just need to cry. i was gonna go out last night…just to get some space…or take henry’s advice and go running. but, i decided to stay in(good job coz it snowed a lot last night). i got up into my room and i just couldnt stop myself crying. usually i have a little sniffle then tell myself to shut up and i stop…but i just coudlnt.i cried until about 4 am lol. im such an idiot.

i just…lost it.i was sitting at the computer and i just panicked…i couldnt breathe, i couldnt think straight, i was shaking. it was actually a little scary…then it kinda merged into a depressed kinda mode…

i dunno. i guess im just a little messed up.i dont feel like me.

i keep getting distracted by msn conversations so this entry doesnt really flow…

no point anyway

back to normal me. nothings wrong. lets make light of any bad situation and become agony aunt again. i was considering blocking anyone who i thought might wanna talk tonight but…thatll just mean their problems build up and i have a very busy talking night tomorro…

from loz