I lay in the grass for a long while.

I’ve just had a really thoughtful morning. I don’t really know why. I have one piece of really important work to do but I just can’t get into it. Damn biology pratical. I have to do my research and plan ready to hand in next monday before my exam next wednesday. Thankfully I’ve been given a couple of hints about what the exam might just be based so it should be ok. I need to get my ass in gear with revising for my physics practical too but i have *no* idea what that’s going to be about. *sighs*

Anyway, back to thinking. For some reason, Jack’s been in my head a lot this morning. He’s in Iraq with the marines. I think he’s been gone almost a month now. 3 more to go. I just want him to come home. I’m so worried about him. No news is good news though lol. It’s just like he’s disappeared. No contact. No visits. No sparkley strippers thongs haha. Oh, I’m gonna have to post a picturenow aren’t I?

This is my baby Jack. This was a week and a day before he went away.

I’ve been wishing Jord was here a lot. I was meant to be going up town with Ashley today but then we both decided not to. So…I’ve had a lonely day. Done some non important work. Done some planning for my day tomorrow. Walked my dog but generally I’ve had an uneventful, lonely day. And I wish that I wasn’t alone. Actually, Jord or Henry. Either would do. Just someone that I know I can trust. And both of those are people I never get to see and always want to. Henry’s off having fun in Edinburgh though.

I miss Zoe a lot. I never spend time with her anymore. I never get to speak to her. She never comes out with us. She’s always distracted by her new wanker of a boyfriend. I would love to get her back. *love* to get her back. I’ve convinced her to come to our leavers ball and I put her name down on our table so she doesn’t have a choice now. I believe my words were “I don’t give a shit, Zoe. I’ll drag you out in your fucking pjs if you force me to. You’re coming. End of” That was my ‘convincing’. haha. But it worked.

blah blah can’t be bothered to ramble anymore. I’m going to try and get some work done. Don’t know if I really want to get involved in my biology because it’s going to take so much thought and research and careful wording and diagrams and blah blah blah.

Lauren x