He kicked my ass

I’ve had a good day. Jason came round. We didn’t do an awful lot. Watched Rush Hour 2, listened to music, ate ready brek seriously oaty (me – honey flavour, him – raspberry and apple flavour) and bah, well, thats about it. Lots of play fighting lol. He kicked my ass many times. Seriously, literally pushes my legs over as i was lying down and kicking my ass. Ouchies. He’s so horrid lol. It was so funny, i was just laughing so much i couldn’t fight back. urgh. He’s horrid as.

Father wanted to try a new chinese this evening. i hate it when he does that. ooh lauren, what do you want? oh, hmmm, we’re going to order from another place that only has one vegetarian meal instead of from the place that does special veggie meals from me. hmm…what do i want? mushroom chop suey by any chance?

yeah, well, i was gonna go to bed earlier. but, to be honest, i knew i was gonna go and cut. So i distracted myself. by taking a photo of myself to send Jason coz he’s moaning he doesnt have a single picture of me. woo i lasted this long, lol. yes, and henrys distracted me with some websites and just by generally being Henry. lol. Henry…you rockface.

but, yes, it’s now 11.30. I’m heading to bed. hmmm…no distractions anymore. I dunno, I’m not upset, like I normally am when i feel like cutting. But, i feel as though it’s the right thing to do. I’m not majorly bothered by it. I just thought i should distract myself coz everyone who knows about it says i should stop and…i know i should but…bah. i dunno. today i just dont care. and not in a negative way. I just *shrug* yeah. i can’t explain myself i wont bother trying properly.

Night

– Lauren xx