1/20/06

life can fuck off. FUCK OFF!! life just fucking shoots all this fuckin g stuff at me and FUCK off! im sor crunk. man im drunk,. Idon;t even giev a shitr that my typing if fucking fucked uyp. I dont give a shit.

you know what? I dont see the fuckng point. I DONTA  SEE  THE FUCKING POINT!!"

wanna know what the fuck has happened now?? wanna know? well my grandads bowel cancer wasnt fucking mentioned but his liver cancer was. that’s grown. and you know what? it’sspread to his lungs. his fucking lungs. and you know the word thats been used?? uncurable. un-fucking-curable. UN-FUCKIN-CURABLE! all they can do is give him morte chemotherapy to delay his death.

fuck…i just went from angry to fucking cryin suring that last sentence. i dont want to go to my grandads funeral. i dont want him to die., please dont let him.please. im begging you. god, whoever, i lovehims o much,

i realised on the way home. i cant remember ever hugging my grandad. i cant remember ever doing it. man fuck this. i kept imagining hugging my grandad and telling him i love him. fuck., i need to do it before he dies. ill regret it so much ifd i dont. ohg my god. please dont let him die. ic ant cop[e with vthat. i canty. please. fuck this

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January 20, 2006

Hang in there wen life is throwing shit ur way! 🙂

January 20, 2006

Hang in there wen life is throwing shit ur way! 🙂

January 20, 2006

*huggles*

January 20, 2006

*huggles*

January 20, 2006

*hug*

January 20, 2006

*hug*

January 20, 2006

RYN: all I can think to do is to tell you that you’re in my thoughts and the good vibes I send out into the universe every night. *more uber-supportive OD buddy huggies*

January 20, 2006

RYN: all I can think to do is to tell you that you’re in my thoughts and the good vibes I send out into the universe every night. *more uber-supportive OD buddy huggies*

I agree, you need to see him before it’s too late. When my grandfather died and he asked for me but the fucking people in the hospital wouldn’t let me because visiting hours were over, I kicked myself in the ass numerous times the day that he died, which was just the day after that. Take the time you can with him so you won’t regret it.

I agree, you need to see him before it’s too late. When my grandfather died and he asked for me but the fucking people in the hospital wouldn’t let me because visiting hours were over, I kicked myself in the ass numerous times the day that he died, which was just the day after that. Take the time you can with him so you won’t regret it.

It’ll mean so much to him and to you when he does pass, because that in itself is inevitable, and once it happens you can’t go back and do what you wish you would’ve. My thoughts go with you and your family because I understand just how difficult it is. ♥♥

It’ll mean so much to him and to you when he does pass, because that in itself is inevitable, and once it happens you can’t go back and do what you wish you would’ve. My thoughts go with you and your family because I understand just how difficult it is. ♥♥

January 21, 2006

RYN: my puh-leasure, of course. and don’t worry about making the “right” choice, because there is no wrong choice. even if you make the one you’d think was wrong, the very act of choosing it makes it the right one. 😀

January 21, 2006

RYN: my puh-leasure, of course. and don’t worry about making the “right” choice, because there is no wrong choice. even if you make the one you’d think was wrong, the very act of choosing it makes it the right one. 😀

January 21, 2006

ireallydon’tknowwhattosay. you’re in my thoughts, along with your grandad.♥-hugs-

January 21, 2006

ireallydon’tknowwhattosay. you’re in my thoughts, along with your grandad.♥-hugs-

Im sorry, really i am. Im here if you need to talk. Sorry huni. xx

Im sorry, really i am. Im here if you need to talk. Sorry huni. xx