I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!

 

 

 

…A Mix Of Good And Bad…

 

 

Nic contacted Erin and told her to have me call him at 2am.

I’m TERRIFIED!

i’ve spent the last 3 hours crying.

this morning, i let it go…i just…let it go. and now! Now he wants me to call him so we can talk.

i dont know what i’m supposed to do!

i know…i want to talk to him but…i dont know what to say!

i just want all of this confusion and pain to GO AWAY!

i’m so TEMPTED to cut…or…bruise myself! i want to make all of this stop!

i need to stop thinking about this…

 

so…how about this to lighten the mood…

i saw Alex today.

he makes me so happy.

we talked for like…2 hours, which went well.

plus i had the opportunity to drive him home.

<strong>we almost kissed today. lol. *smiles*

when i’m with him, i cant stop smiling!

he makes me laugh all the time!

sometimes…it feels too good to be true…but…really…i think that this is just what it seems to be.

Alex is wonderful!

i love spending time with him! it’s like i’m in a whole other world!

he lets me be me! he lets me talk about stupid shit and important shit.

he listens to me.

but…now…i’ve got to go for the hard part…getting HIM to open up to ME.

that is NOT going to be easy. but…i’ll try. i want him to know that i’m here for him too…that i’m a good listener and that i care.

he’s a great guy and i want him to feel appreciated.

he deserves that.

 

oh…and about yesterday’s "shopping spree". lol.

i did buy my dress. i will put a picture of it on here soon. i promise! lol.

it’s GORGEOUS! i havent bought my tiara yet though. but i will as soon as i can.

 

n e way…that’s all for now.

love you all.

-Kat

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