really no excuse

wow, its been almost a month since i updated.  j’excuse, mon amis, j’excuse.  i didn’t get the job i interviewed for, i’m not all that surprised i didn’t get it because i wasn’t really quite qualified for it, but i had a good interview at least i thought i did.  they decided to leave the position open, but they are sliding someone into it for the interim.  i dunno.  i really do want to work in the library.  more and more i’m thinking that public librarianship is where i need to start aiming.  i like academic, but my mls-only resume seems to be a bit of detriment to the whole affair. 

i’m doing some scrambling right now.  my reference gig will officially end at the end of this semester.  i’m not seeing any reprieves comign down the pike either.  to some degree i’m upset.  i put 2 1/2 years of my life into this place and i’m getting the shaft, so to speak.  i have applied for three positions here at the library.  one of which i’m not qualified for, the other one is probably going to be filled by the visiting librarian that is already in the position (library world is a very strange place).  the other one that’s gonna be a crap shoot, too.   i’m still working at the bookstore, doing that around 15-17 hours a week.  and i’m also still down in archvies, but the ever elusive fulltime job is, well, ever elusive. 

i find myself asking "why did i ever do this library thing" often.  it certainly hasn’t panned out the way i had hoped.  i would probably council someone looking to do a masters in library science to get the library job first and then, maybe, go back and get the degree.  that’s the other thing that’s truly frustratinig.  two library science schools in indiana pumping librarians out. this place is awash with librarians. its all very frustrating.  i don’t begrudge them their jobs, just let me get mine first, okay?

this week has been spring break, so i’ve been working during the day and having my evenings free.  i dont do anything but go home, eat, and just chill, watch some tv, read a little.  its been really nice.  i’d forgotten how much i enjoy being at home at night.  working the late night shift at the library hasn’t been all that much fun.  i haven’t learned all that much either.  i have discovered the joys of netflix streaming videos, though.  that has helped pass the time. 

i applied for something at west point, yeah, the military academy.  i think i did, at least, the website i had to use was, to say the least un-userfriendly.  what do you expect from the government, right?  the other day i saw an opening at the library i’ve applied to four times (or is it  five).  i’ll be giving that one another go, too.

since the last time i stopped by the zoo i turned 37 years old.  for some reason 37 has really hit me hard.  i feel like i’m still in the same place i was 3 years ago.  my wheels are spinning and my wings are getting tired. 

recently, i have rekindled my chess game.  well to say "rekindle" means that it was actually on fire, even to say "my chess game" denotes that i’ve had a chess game in the past.  neither of which is true.  i can move the pieces around, but that’s about it.  i think i’ve won two games, one of them was by accident and the other one the person i was playing against ran out of time.  i play online.  i bought myself a chess board for my birthday from BN. its a nice thing, its actually been pretty fun to play against myself.  i’ve gotten a bunch of books from the library all about chess, mainly the history of it.  one in particular is the history of the queen and how it becamse such a powerful piece.  i got a book called 3,000 chess openings, too.  its a tome.  really.  huge.  i read three pages and had to chase my eyeballs as they rolled out of my head.  not exciting reading. 

so, i will offer my apologies one more time, this seems like a standard chorus with lil ol loof lately.  and i will endevour to better about updating.  take care.

peace love and paper dolls