Hi, my name is Lonely Writer

I am new here.  I always feel the hunger to write but I can’t seem to put my finger on what it is I am supposed to write?  I get very inspired when I read my favourite books like the A Song of Fire and Ice Series.  Its like an itch I cannot scratch so I decided to start with this and see how it goes.

I have struggled with mental illness most of my life and have trouble identifying with who I am.  I get obsessive if I pick up on an interest and read about it constantly and think about it constantly.  When the fire fades and I don’t have an interest for that moment I get anxious, bored and depressed.  I think the interests I pick up are like a pill that helps distract me from everything in my life, past, present, future.  For now my future looks scary and unsatisfying, the past makes me shake and want to vomit and the present leaves me hopeless and wishing that everything that is happening is a night mare and I will wake up soon.