trapped
I feel trapped I feel at times like I’m drowning and don’t know how to stop myself.
I love my husband but do I love him enough that I would never leave him if my ex ever wanted me back.. I’;m not sure.
This ex I dated in 9th grade and for some reason I can not seem to get him out of my heart. I stil have notes he wrote me. and just to keep up to date im 30 yrs old. I don’t know if I need closure or what.. We only dated for a few months I did not lose any special parts of my body to him but I still feel like I love him. He broke up with me by a letter and I neve spoke another word to him after that. I was to bitter. After a few years I tried to force myself to at least say Hi to him and never could get the courage.
And Im not sure if I do want him out of my heart, I’m scared I will lose that piece of my life. I cant get myself to get rid of the letters. My heart still feels broken.
I have no idea what I should do.
I’ve noticed (with me at least) that when there is an ex that I can’t stop thinking about it’s not that I want him, but that he filled some part of me that who ever I am with isn’t filling. Try not to cling to the past try to focus on the present is the best I can tell ya to try to do. How long have you been married anyway? Good luck with whatever you end up doing
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