Im lossing it

I feel like im tossing my mind. I am trying to keep it together its not working. I have such an over analysing brain that I just don’t know how to be a normal person that “Dates” I always screw things up. I meet a really nice guy last night, had a coffee with him and all seemed amazing when I went to bed. I wake up and messaged a nice good morning, hadn’t heard from him in a couple of hours so thought I would call him he didn’t answer. Then I went into crazy mood. I blocked my number and rang like 30 mins later. I woke him up he was really not with it. I apologised, let him go sent another apology text stupid thing to do and still 2 hrs later nothing. Why can’t I just let things happen normally just let them work at there own pace, why do I have to be so eager to move things on. Why, why why.

It was an amazing time he said he had a great time and really wants to see me again even wanted to see me tonight but I don’t know why now he hasn’t messaged. I can’t message or call now I will look like a crazy person. I know that Im so over thinking every little thing in life and have a crazy active brain. Anyway who knows what will happen

Should always remember to take my meds 2 days off them and I go nuts