Worried

Today I wasn’t in a good shape. I’m a type who can worry too much and create darkest scenarios possible, and this is what has been happening today.

There is some issue with my health, maybe it’s nothing but I have already created a whole story, the worst possible and I’m really worried.

Today was also one of those days when I’ve been feeling very negative about myself, about who I am. I keep thinking that I’m not good enough, not cool enough, not fun enough….in the church I felt out of place and lost. I talked to my friend which helped (she wasn’t in a good shape either) but this negative feeling is still around…like a dark cloud.

Tomorrow I have a busy day though. One of my old friends invited me to the concert, some sort of orchestra with children involved…not sure what is all about but maybe it’s going to be fun. Then I have to run to the literature evening where I’m going to be a voluntary selling books….with my other friend…..to be honest I’m not so into it but I’ve already promised my friend so I have to go. There will be also some talk with the author so it might be nice, but today I see everything in grey colours! I think what mainly puts me down is worry about my health issue….:(

I want to be positive….at least here…but I have to be honest too, I don’t like to be so negative, I just hope things will get better!