Old Love

Yesterday I saw a guy I was so in love with ages ago! I haven’t seen him for…what…6-7 years?! I was really and utterly in love with him and I was sure for the first time in my life that I want to get married full stop!

We weren’t in some kind relationship but we were hanging around together and he was behaving in a way that made me think that he was interested. Then everything changed on my brother’s birthday party. He came to the party (I invited him) and got a bit drunk. My friend called Basia told me that he is looking at her in a weird way and he is not trustworthy and we have to ‘try him’. I was stupid enough to agree. In fact all of my friends said that they don’t like/trust him but I couldn’t understand why, well he behaved a bit like he was a king of the place…but he was nice too.

Anyway,as I’ve said he got a bit drunk (I was very sober that time) and Basia started to dance with him….then this thing happened, he grabbed her bum and most of my friends saw it (expect me! I was quite blind those days) When they told me that I was shocked. I think I created some kind of perfect vision of him and us being together, and him grabbing my friend’s ass didn’t fit in that picture! So I had withdrawn myself from him, I think he didn’t remember what he has done because next day he was coming over to me with smiles thanking for such a nice party! I though that maybe it’s my problem, maybe there was nothing to be upset about, but all my friends were very negative about him including my sister! So, I became cold and that was the beginning of the end.

Then suddenly I overheard in the pub that Giuseppe is going to become a monk!!! It was a shock! He told me one evening in the church and asked me to come to the cafe but I didn’t go, and that was the last time I saw him.

Until yesterday! He came over for his friend’s ordination and when I saw him I almost screamed! I was shocked and I didn’t know if I should come over to say hi or not. He was wearing something like this

I’ve realised I can’t act like I haven’t seen him so I said hello, he came over and we had a very short chat, very short in fact…and that’s it. I didn’t feel anything but it was a bit like I’ve moved back in time. He looked very good actually, much much better than before. He lost weight and his face looked very fresh, suddenly I felt jealous that he moved on with his life (even if that means being a monk!) because I feel like I’m standing in one place not moving much….but then when I look closer I can see that my life is changing and moving but it happens very slowly so I really need to look very close to see that change.

Yesterday I also went to Carluccio’s for my friend’s birthday dinner. Then on Friday I met my friend in Zizzi pizzeria, so I’ve been eating out quite a lot lately. No good for my wallet!

One more thing:

Here is a 5 Years Diary that I’ve bought on Amazon

I like it very much! It’s One-Sentence Journal, you write one or two sentences a day. Inside it looks like this

You write a bit then next year you write in the line under and so on, after few years you can see what have you done or thought at certain day few years ago. I think it’s a great idea especially for people who don’t have time or energy to write long entries in journals. It helps to capture the moment so it is not lost. I really recommend it!

I bought my friend different one. Mine has some quotations for each day, in her there are questions for each day, then you can see how you answer changes through out the years. Or you can ignore the question and just write. Here it’s Q&A

this one is more elegant. Mine is blue with yellow page edges, this one has golden edges and it’s simpler in colour.