My grandma

It’s been so long since I’ve written and so many things have happened that I won’t even try to gather all those events in here…as I’m too detailed and it will take me ages to write everything!

Firstly, I didn’t write for so long because my new computer didn’t allow me to do so, finally my clever brother discovered it was the internet fault, so now I’m fixed, well not entirely as for some reason I can’t change the size of my text….that’s why it is so annoyingly small.

This month was really difficult, on the 13th of January my lovely grandma has passed away. We booked tickets in a day and were all off to Poland within the same week. It was a very difficult experience, the only thing that cheered me up a bit was the church where the funeral took place. In a Catholic faith it is still Christmas season, until the 2nd of February, so the whole church was decorated in beautiful Christmas tress and just behind my grandma’s coffin was a huge crib with quite large Child Jesus, and I knew how much my grandma loved child Jesus, so those things somehow cheered me up a bit. 

Apart from that, the church was horribly cold! Outside was even worse, snowing all the time and cold cold!

I stayed in Poland for a week, it was a strange experience not seeing her there…I couldn’t walk into my grandma’s house without stir of emotions….everything there reminds me of her, everything smells of her….as long as I remember she has always been there, ready to help and welcome me. In fact I grew up with her, and when my mother left the country when I was 12 she was like a mother to me. In a way me and my sister feel like we have lost a mother, very painful. I’m better now though, I think being back to UK and starting to live my life again helps a lot. But I still feel her presence, sometimes I dream of her, one was particularly vivid and almost like real, I believe she wanted to show me that she will look after us, and I feel it.

I will miss her so much, I brought with me from Poland only a cup, as I always had teas and coffees with my grandma and that particular cup reminds me of her, and a set of DVDs I bought for her as these were her favourite TV series

She loved it and it always made her laugh.

It’s funny but somewhere along the way of writing this I have started to feel better. I wished I had some photos of her on my comp. but I haven’t done it yet as my computer is new, waiting for the day when I’m finally gonna do it might be long so I send this entry without photos. Once I’m more organized in here I will put some photos, I think it will make me feel better 🙂

Meanwhile, I’m going to doctor today, have been coughing and feeling quite bad for the whole week, it gets worse so I need some stronger medicine.

I want to visit my diary and read my favs more often, I’m so behind! XXXX