Evening notes

Tomorrow I have to wake up at 6am so I will be on time for my exam. Usually I need quite a lot of time in the morning so that’s the reason for such an early start. I can’t just wake up and leave, I need to prepare, have my coffee, something to eat etc.

I’m a bit nervous about this exam….I’m sort of prepared but I still make small, stupid mistakes and I’m pretty sure I will make more when I’m going to stand there alone in front of the examiner and trying to play!

Tonight is really windy and rainy, my brother is around, he comes often, almost every evening and it’s fun, I’m glad he is back! He is now typing into another computer, my mum is not back yet, and I’m already in my pyjamas ready to go to bed. I have to sleep earlier (by that I mean before 12!)

The book I’ve just finished to read ‘Weird Sisters’ I enjoyed this book very much. I liked the writing and the whole story. I liked the originality and strength of each character and at the same time the simplicity and humanity that each character hold within. This book made me feel better, maybe because I saw myself in those sisters, in my failures etc, not exactly the same failures as theirs but still the failures. I often feel like a failure, that at my age I should have a career or/and family of my own and/or know what I want from life and/or I should use my abilities in a better way etc. And I’m none of those things, I’m just who I am and if I should change something in my life I need to first understand why I want to change it…no point to do this only because of the pressure.

Anyway, time to bed!