Social Butterfly

My head and ears are killing me this morning – stupid sinuses not able to deal with a little rain and gloom outside. It was such a glorious day yesterday – I went for a nice, long bike ride last night after dinner and sat outside on our new glider while the cats played in the back yard. And now today – pure crap. It is supposed to remain pretty cool for the next week or two when most of us are just dying for some nicer, warmer days FINALLY. Sure, we had some teasers over the past few months but I keep thinking in the back of my mind. . .where is summer?

I hate wishing the days away too – as you get older, time really does go by so much faster and when I have things to look forward to, events coming up, it seems like the weeks just fly by. My mom will be flying up here from Florida exactly 2 weeks from this coming Saturday for her visit and it seems like just yesterday, I was online, buying her ticket to get her up here. In FEBRUARY. *sigh* That seemed like ages ago then. Before you know it, my mom and brother will be up here for their visit, my cousin will be getting married and then they will be back on a plane heading home – in a blink of an eye.

I try so hard to live IN the moment, not for the moment. Take a few seconds when you are in the middle of a really happy moment or event, look around and really savor it, you know? Those times can be few and far between and I am sick and tired of letting them pass me by in a blur. I have been much better about it these past few years, realizing just how important they are but it really is a developed skill, one you have to work on – at least it is for someone like me whose mind is usually speeding a mile a minute at all times.

The weekends are filling up fast – faster than I would like and after the big blow out with Brian last year about this, I find I am having to reign myself in once again. I am not intending to plan out every weekend between now and the end of summer but damn it, why does everyone we knows birthdays have to fall in the month of June and July? Literally EVERY friend we have, including Brian himself have these summer birthdays except our goddaughter and hers is just in August. You want to do something for them, celebrate with them but one right after the other and there go the weekends. What does it look like now?

May 24th – Mom gets here from Florida

May 31st – my cousin’s wedding

June 7th – Mom flies home to Florida

June 14th – celebrating Andy’s birthday, trip to outlet malls and dinner

June 21st – celebrating Lynne’s little girl’s birthday with their family, she will be 2 years old

June 28th – Brian’s birthday is the 27th, maybe a weekend trip away, just the two of us?

July 5th – 4th of July weekend so party at Lynne’s parents lake house along with her birthday on the 6th

July 12th – one of my best friend’s, Carol, is turning 60 this year and I am helping her family through a b-day open house for her.

July 19th – Lynne’s oldest will be turning 6 and I am sure we will be doing something this weekend with them to celebrate

This is it so far – sad, isn’t it? All the way to the end of July and every, single weekend has some plan.

You could try and take a more positive spin on it and say – aren’t we SO lucky to have so many great friends that want to spend time with us? That is how I choose to look at it most of the time and how I try to get Brian to look at it when he is getting burned out with too many plans and too much money spent on gifts for people. We have the money, we have the time so why not do nice things for other people?

I better get back to work – not too motivated today. Hell – I haven’t been motivated any day this week. It is nice knowing in the back of my mind that I am leaving here in less than 2 months. I work hard while I am here but then go home and don’t worry about what tomorrow may bring anymore. It is a nice feeling to have and funny, as soon as my boss knew I was leaving, she is treating me so much nicer than she used to. Go figure!