3 months later…

Wow!  I knew it had been a long time since I had been on here, but I guess I didn’t realize it had been THAT long.  I hope to make it a resolution to at least get on and read a little more often.  Our main computer in the house (other than our work laptops) kind of pooped out on us.  I used to always sit and blowdry my hair by reading up, but that hasn’t happened with the computer being on the fritz!

So a lot has happened in the past 3 months.  At the beginning of November I had a miscarriage at about 9 weeks along.  Ultrasounds showed the baby probably had stopped growing at 6 weeks and then it just took me those three weeks before my body started rejecting it and trying to get rid of it.  I felt absolutely awful about a week before the miscarriage and hardly had the strength to stand up for 30 minutes in class to teach.  It was a strangest thing, and I knew something wasn’t right.  After a few days of light spotting, it got much worse.  A few HCG tests confirmed what we figured was probably going on, and I spent one day off work at home going through some serious pain and agony.  I would venture to say the miscarriage was about more painful than labor with Hannah.  Part of it was probably the emotional pain of knowing we were losing a precious little one.  Anyway, it has been a tough recovery from this all.  I know it’s all in God’s plan and that His timing is perfect, but it still makes it hard when thinking that I could be over 4 months pregnant now.  When I think about those things, it becomes depressing.  The holidays were tough because I knew that was when we were planning to tell our family members and other people.  We are recovering now and just hoping and praying that my doctor lets us go back on Clomid this next cycle so we can give this all a try again!  🙂  Hannah has been such a miracle child to us.  We knew what a blessing she was before, but this has made us even more grateful for the gift of her in our lives. 

The holidays have come and gone, and it is kind of sad to think of it all being over.  I finally took my tree down a week ago.  It always makes me sad to think of it all being over.  Even Hannah begged me to leave the tree up, and she still asks me every night where the Christmas tree is.  That girl is going to love the holidays as much as I do, and that brings a smile to my face!  We were able to spend time with all of our family during the holidays, and we even escaped to the mountains for New Year’s.  We got caught in an awful snowstorm on the way out, but it was beautiful to see the snowy mountains!

Otherwise life is about the same.  Teaching is going great!  It’s hard to believe that we’re already half way through the school year.  Hannah is growing like crazy (along with her 2-year-old attitude) every day!  She always brings a smile to our faces!  She is now completely potty trained (although she does still sleep in a diaper) during the day, which makes it so nice!  We have pretty much lost our "baby" as she hits all of these milestones! 

Hope all is well with everyone and that you had a wonderful holiday season!  I hope to check back much more often…