zac

I am so glad zac is kinda and patience. if it wasn’t for him I would go crazy . I told him I wasn’t over Kyle completely , and he just nope still not gona make me leave . he a kind genital man, and he needs a better girlfriend then what I am. today alone we got into 3 fights over the same issue. and guessed who start the fight I did . cause I don’t know when to shut my mouth . I don’t know how to control my thoughts sometimes . and when I don’t get my way I cry about it . I need to stop . and learn how to compromise . things will get better, he understands me today he told me that he loved me so much he so scared to lose me . I don’t think I ever had anyone say that to me . I know things will get better .

anyway about this issues , I am the little ball of sex . my life is sex I love sex I love talking about it I love having it specially with someone I love but with zac he like put a wall because he doesn’t want the relationship to get ruined by sex. I understand that . maybe I should figure out better ways to de horny…. which its most easier to have someone else help you out with . but I need to just let time take its course things will get better I will not let this destroy something that is good for me. I will be strong . I need to just learn that just cause you are horny doesn’t mean you have to go into bitch mood .

I will deal with this in a normal way. i wont pressure , he a guy but it doesnt mean he away he up for it . just how i was. 

I was so fed up tongiht i almost broke up with him over sex . wtf is wrong with me . 

breath and let it out . 

things will get better . I know it will i love him just give it time .