im a mess

i want to find that person im gona spend my life with . cause seriously thinking you are gona spend your life with someone to have them tell you no this isnt gona work out,,, hurts a hellll of alot. it consumes me , my feelings are all over the place . =[ its not fair that im crying over it and you are just happy and shit . like how can you be soo heartless so cold . like do i not mean anything to you , it hurts sooo much,  why did you have to be like this ….. i cant stand this feeling 

im a reck , a huge reck. i swear someday when i see you again im gona punch you . you promised me you wouldnt hurt me …. 

wish i could forget you , wished i never loved you